My sister is acting horrible. She won't stop screaming and screaming. My mother aswell, my mom's voice makes my head hurt so very much. I hate it here. I wanna disappear and go too my friends house or cry in my friends arms for comfort. I hate it when people yell at me, I act like I don't care but in reality I want to kill someone. Not physically, but figuratively.
No matter how much my mother yells at my sister, she just sits there , playing dumb.
I hate this so much.
My mom will probably ask me why I'm texting so much while she's yelling.
Hopefully this journal will help me, I've never tried writing about how I feel but I'll give it a shot.
To be honest, the way my mom says things sounds horrible. I know her intentions, but I feel she's saying things wrong, sometimes. As shown, "IM GONNA SLAP THE SH!¡T OUT OF YOU!!" see, that sounds abusive out of context, but she means she will spank sadie, not slap, does it mean the same thing? Idk.
Don't get me wrong, I love my mom, and sister. But sometimes I just want them too go away. And I know I do some things wrong aswell, I just don't get punished As bad. I'm not favorited, I just act better.
My mom is litteraly gonna lose her job because of us. It's so dumb.
I know I'm apart of this but I wish I wasn't a biediger. And that I had a good family, and a permanent father.
Maybe I'll write more later, I'm in the car rn about too be dropped off at my papa's house. Goodbye for now.
-Ila
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vent journal. 2023.
AcakI'm gonna vent here, since that's the case, this will most likely be my most updated story. I will say good and bad things here. :) :(
