Chance To Start Over Again

Author's Note

hello, dear readers.

i'd like to apologize how long i was out. to be honest, i still wrote but never published any of it. six notebooks and not one ever got to be released. everything was unfinished, but regardless how long i was gone, i still often get comments here and i won't deny that even though my passion's already long gone, they still give me faint sparks. i want to try again. even for a little. thank you for those who waited and commentedー to those who immersed themselves in my story even though the early writings were crap because i was so young. thank you for staying.

for those who left lovely, encouraging comments, i'd like to confess that despite leaving, i took pictures of those who were kind enough to hype me up. i do not need to put out names as there were many and those people who sees this would certainly know it was them. the kindness of these people made me look back and think of coming back even though i've no creativity left in my little bottle. thank you. from the bottom of my heart.

i have an awful memory. i would not be able to remember a moment after a week passes by. but the feeling of being so exhilarated back when i started this story to the point sometimes i would go straight to my computer after school. my mother half complained and half at awe with how fast i would type, the keys under my touch sounding like they would bounce off after i press on them. i adored the loud clacks of my keyboard. it was a time i loved writing, a time i loved bringing out and sharing my imaginations, incredibly vivid in my mind that i would fear of forgetting them if i opted to writing it the next day instead, so i would either type them on my phone or write them in my notebook.

unfortunately, i will no longer continue this story, as i've long forgotten how i wanted it to go. and if i might go against my word, at least not now. as reimbursement, however, i do plan on rewriting this. it will be very flawed, but i want to continue on what past me wanted to do. you'd be able to compare the pacing of the chapter to the speed of the snail, as the things i worry about multiplied over time.

i would also like to warn everyone that my writing has definitely changed. i am still experimenting with a lot of things, and i hope it won't inconvenience you, dear reader. another issue is that due to my long absence of writing, some of you might find my grammar questionable or my words shallow. i will thank those who will comment constructive criticisms regarding that matter in advance.

once again, i thank my dear readers for still remembering this story. to those who waited, i deeply apologize for the long and indefinite hiatus. i don't know if i can call it indefinite with how determined i was on leaving, but i will do my best to write and take back what i felt back then when i was eleven or twelve years old.

(to those who are curious, the rest of the remaining chapters i wrote back in 2020 can be found at fanfiction.net)