Born To Write

MY STORY

Seconds pass, minutes, hours, days Sometimes they are full of love,
feelings, fear, gratitude, sadness, honesty,
And others that lead us to adventures that we did not aspire, to put on
ourselves
In situations, we did not want to face, and here they bring us back to
point zero.
Point zero is this a good thing or just a hallucination you are experiencing

I've always been this way, I've always been a stupid idiot, a wretch, a cowardly follower, and most importantly, far from the right path
My feelings pushed me to turn away from him, and I found myself
lost In a world I never imagined that I would live, for a strange feeling
that I never wanted to own.
During all this, I'm rotting in a slumber No one ever wanted to help
No one stood by me, no one ever encouraged me, no one ever chanted
and said Mohamed don't stop. Don’t give up, we are with you Mohamed
You can find your way, more than three months was the worst stage In
my life
depression is worse than cancer Indeed I'm hallucinating Because with Cancer everyone will sympathize with you, they'll stand by you
You’ll feel that you deserve life;
you can go on Stand on your feet to find people shouting your name while waiting for you at the finish line which is the right path
As for depression,
you won't find anyone. Believe me,
I lived through it And I don't want anyone to get hurt because it really
will drive you crazy
They will think that you just pretend you just want people to take care of you

If God loves a human, He afflicts him Will that person be patient?
Is it just a difficult test?
But remember that any test you will face, you are going to pass it
Even if you get failed you will pass,
And this is the same thing that I lived through I didn't want to stay in
that state.
I got up myself and said we will resist. We will rise and we will look
and find the way, not only to survive but to find me,
To be the personality that I lost,
to regain my love for life, have the
courage that I never had.
Step one and the toughest decision I ever made was that I gave up
everything lifestyle habit friends,
I seriously started from zero
The main decision was I decided to come back to my God to repent
for everything for every mistake I committed.
I returned to God as if I were an infidel.
I read dozens of books and
stories I've never felt this strongly before
That wasn't all, I apologize to everyone I misunderstood And I ignored
everyone who hurt me,
Everyone who despised me, everyone who used me as a means to
achieve their interests,
Everyone who accused me, and everyone tarnished my reputation,
everybody called me a liar, a hypocrite, and a cuckold,
Everyone underestimated their neglect, and my sole desire was to follow the path of my Lord.
And the liar says that God does not give you light, guidance, and the right path
The college season begin every day my passion, my love, and my courage grew each day I learn something new I use hard work in silence to be a strength that I am proud of
However, the good manners that my mother gave me are the key to
any predicament I get into I learned to love myself, to encourage myself, to be able to face every problem by myself,

And don’t need anyone although I isolated myself from the world,
I did not care about them
every test I faced I came out victorious from it, I did not give up,
I worked every day every second minute
To find myself to achieve my dream, my goal, and my desire
I never thought that I would succeed, but I was sure of it I was telling
my Lord that I would do it,
I wished for my supplication to be answered thanks to Him,
Then by working hard, I became a better person, I was respected by
everyone and this is what I am proud of.
Until we got to the 13th of February that day I didn't sleep from the
joy, gratitude, and crying I had that night when I announced that I was
the first in the batch
I ran home to tell my mother, I didn't feel joy, all the way my eyes
were flowing with tears I didn't know what kind they were Joy, tears,
pain, gratitude, or something else
You might say that is just a stupid achievement and I know this but in
that time I needed any simple thing any result to push me further
I learned that no matter what I do in this life, no one will agree to it
I learned to listen and then speak, to smile, to be positive no matter
the circumstances, to agree, and then to do what my mind dictates me
Life is hard we all have to go through tough tests, But do you why
know it’s important because,
With every difficult test you pass, you will become stronger and
smarter.
Days pass and through the effort I had been doing, there are a great
number of haters who said he won't succeed,
He won't be able to continue, he is stupid and weak, and he won't be
able to achieve success,
And eventually, I achieved it lots of people started searching for me
once they realized the terrible mistake they made
They begged, and I did not and will not return because I hated them. It
was an incentive for me to prove to myself that I am stronger and not
in revenge for them.
No, if I thought that way, I would have become weak, and in any test
that I am subjected to, I will remember them,
No I learned to compare myself to myself, and love my family, they
understood everything I had
didn't know what I'm great at I tried everything, I asked god please
gave me a hint and show me what I'm great at but u know if god is making something for you, means you are the Luckiest person on
earth,
The day I decide to write everything felt was the start of Great
journey,
The more I write more peaceful healed I became, I never thought that
I will write that much
I never know how to do this, and I never think about what I'm writing
its natural everything is full of Heart and feelings,
With the journey I had, I was so happy that I could write,
I start writing and showing people what I'm capable of, and suddenly a
lot of them like it, most of them feel healed feel touched
Others start laughing about what I'm doing its all crab you are just
wasting your time,
But I never listen to them because I love what I'm doing and if only
one person feels happy about it I will keep doing it
It started with text then a sentence then stories and scenarios and
maybe a Book After
And here I am back to zero where it all started, where I picked up my
phone and started to express my feelings with my eyes shedding
painful tears
And here I am crying again and remembering every difficult moment
in my life, every test I passed, the days when I could not see myself in
the mirror,
The day when I used to hate myself, but now I am proud of all my
flaws before my advantages
I am grateful for this moment that I lived and that I will live, no one
knows what will happen in the future,

So let us live the moment and indeed I have reached the endpoint
We will not give up. It is only the beginning
We won the battle and were not defeated after the war Thank you,
Thank you to everyone who stood by me in my worst moments,
Thank you to everyone who hated, provoked, and insulted me.
Without you, I wouldn't have come.
Thank you mom for making me a man