vent & rant book

it got worse (updated)

⚠️ talking some depressing shit, derealization)

Uh idk how to start this whatever bullshit but fuck this bullshitass life I fucked it up and bitches say "ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO FIX IT" like BITCH😟 I'm so fucking done and and and
I fucked up basically everything and now I have to pay the consequences
I fucked up my teeth my grades and I'm a loser and a dumbass everyone around me asks what I wanna be in the future and everyone else just seems to know what they wanna do except me and everyone else has good grades and good everything and all I have no will to live I'm unlucky at everything (NOT MANIFESTING) literally and and
And I feel like numb I feel half real maybe not even I just feel so unreal all the time especially when I go outside or when I'm not listening to music (sometimes it doesn't even help) and

I HATE when bitches offer me a hug like I hate looking like I can't solve my own problems and can't deal with my own emotions (not saying bitches who get hugs can't) or like I HATE when bitches ask me if I'm crying (there's bitches around maybe I will continue later it's just some episode I'm not like this I swear)

UPDATE: my teeth are better now!!! Just few more fixes and I'll have braces!! Yall should have seen how it looked before (really shouldn't it was so bad) I before had rotting teeth I was so insecure and shit but it's now thankfully a lil bit fixed :) even though the front teeth are fucked up I'm insecure of my apple bites

And I got accepted into high school idk when I wrote that I think I wrote it before I got accepted so I was really scared but I'm now I'm scared that I'll fucking fail so hopefully not

And derealization is now just a tad bit better I guess I'm just too emo to not feel real these days
These days I'm just crying all the time like a little bitch

I'm just sleeping 24/7 these days tbh