Pietro Maximoff Imagines

Endgame

the feeling of your stomach dropping at the sight of something so shocking your breathe slowing down your chest tightening wanting to be able to breathe properly but you just can't i slowly approached my dad his face half burnt blood running from his head i saw peter crying while my mom pulled him away she was whispering to him my mom stepped away from him and looked at me i came down towards my dad i got onto my knees sto0nes digging into my knees but i didn't care 

"hey dad it's me Y/n we did it we won you always risked everything for us you can't leave us now please dad dont its not your time yet" i placed my hand on his chest 

"friday?"

"life function critical"

"no please no cmon on dad you gotta get up c'mon we're gonna go home come on please!" he placed his hand on mine he continued to stay silent i looked down as the light stopped his hand slipped off mine and all the tears came at once i could barely breathe i felt someone help me off my knees i turned to see Pietro i hugged him tight i couldn't stop i used to think my dad could survive anything we walked onto the jet my legs trembling when i sat down i couldn't even process what had just happened i rested my head on Pietro's shoulder 

A week later  Tony's funeral 

"everybody wants a happy ending but it doesn't always roll that way maybe this time I'm hoping this is play this back its in celebration i hope families are reunited i hope we get it back and something like a normal version of the planet has been restored  if there ever was such a thing god what a world, universe now if you told me 10 years ago that we weren't alone let alone to this extent, i mean i wouldn't of been surprised but come on who knew? the epic forces of light and darkness that have come into play and for better and for worse that's the reality Morgan & Y/n are going to find a way to grow up in it so i thought i better record a little greeting in case of a untimely death on my part not that death at any time isn't untimely this time travel thing that were gonna try and do it's got me scratching my head about survivability of it all thats the thing then again that's the hero gig right part of the journey to the end anyways what am i tripping for everythings gonna work out exactly the way it's supposed too i love you 3000" tears escaped my eyes we all start to walk outside everyone dressed in black i held morgans hand as mom held his heart we got to the dock as she pushed it in the water i scanned across the garden everyone started to part from each other i went up towards wanda pietro and bucky 

"you guys came"

"of course we did" wanda hugged me 

"i just wish he had more time with him"

"i know we all will miss him okay i understand i thought vis would be around for forever but now he's gone i just don't know what to do now" 

"and nat she deserved so much better" pietro hugged me tight 

"we'll give you to some time to yourselves" bucky and wanda walked towards sam and steve 

"how are you coping"

"pretty shitty i just can't believe it first nat then my dad its like i have the worst luck in the whole universe"

"dont worry im gonna be here for you no matter what"

"knowing my luck you'll be gone soon"

"hey don't say that i'm not going anywhere i promise you that and as long as i am here nobody is gonna hurt you anymore"

As human beings, we suffer losses of many kinds and sizes in our lifetime. While some of these losses are small and do not hurt much, some are big and hurt deeply like my dads those that are accompanied by pains that are difficult to bear include the loss of a loved one, In all these instances of loss, pain and grief are experienced and an emotional wound is created which needs healing my wound will never heal i've tried i really have its always in the back of my mind i always try to forget i really do but it haunts' me i've tried therapy. makes it even worse.getting wanda to erase my mind, i remembered when i woke up the next morning you slip and fall into that pit of depression that you were once in before and this time you can't dig your way out there is no escape this is your reality you have to deal with it i will walk around the city and see paintings posters and masks of him everywhere there is no escape pietro has been so patient im dragging him down with me i want to save him from the hurt while i still can i could take my pain but i cant bring myself to put him in pain everyone around me was slowly expecting my dads death but i just couldn't pietro would stay with me every night to make sure i was okay he would pick up flowers for me to go put by his grave he was the best but i didn't want to hurt him 

"Y/n i'm home"

"hey im in the bedroom" 

"oh hey how you feeling today"

"uh fine i guess listen i need to speak to you"

"of course you can tell me anything"

"listen i think we need to take a break" he just looked at me he didn't say a word i could tell by the look in his eyes his world had shattered 

"uh im sorry what i don't understand why?!"

"listen i love you like your my whole world but im not well if i can't even look after myself how am i going to look after you" he just started laughing i looked at him confused why was he laughing 

"i don't need you to look after me right now you need me to look after to you and when the time comes ill need you and you'll look after me i love you okay"

i hugged him tightly he was right, he was always right i was so focused on the fact that i  wont get better than actually having a open mind to get better i might never be over my dad's death but atleast i know he's watching over me and he would want me to have a good life.

(btw i actually cried while writing this bc i was also watching endgame)