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CHAPTER 10

Y/N'S POV

After meeting the head I went to my cabin and sat on my chair. I closed my eyes and leaned back to relax and process what was happening around.

When I heard a knock I straighten my posture and said come in. I looked up to see who it was and to my suprise it was Jimin.

Jimin- Hey, Y/N.

Y/N- What are you doing here and what do you want? ( I said in a cold tone)

Jimin- I...I wanted to t...talk to y..you.

Y/N- Hmm. Say it fast, I don't have time.

Jimin- Y/N, I'm sorry for everything which happened in the past. I was helpless that time. I had never thought that one day we have to separate. I'm regretting it.
I should have not break you trust. I agree that it was all my fault and if you want explanation, I can give you that.
I still love you Y/N and leaving you was my worst decision ever. If you want I can make everything like before. Please Y/N forgive me.

Y/N- How can you....Do you even know what I have been through, huh. AFTER YOU LEFT YOU DIDN'T EVEN LOOKED BACK ONCE. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED AFTER YOU LEFT.
I BECAME DEPRESSED AFTER YOU LEFT. I WAS SUFFERING  FROM DEPRESSION, ANXIETY AND MANY MORE THINGS. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I THOUGHT OF SUICIDE FOR A GUY LIKE THIS.
MY PARENTS WERE NOT ABLE TO SEE ME UN THAT CONDITIONS AND THOUGHT TO TALK TO YOU AND SORT EVERYTHING OUT BUT YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM.......( I gulped and continued) THEY DIDN'T CAME HOME BACK AND I GOT A CALL FROM HOSPITAL.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAID, THEY SAID SORRY MISS BUT YOUR PARENTS DIED IN AN CAR ACCIDENT. AND THAT ALL HAPPENED BECAUSE OF YOU.
NO ONE WAS THERE TO COMFORT ME, TO SAY ME THAT I'M WITH YOU. DO YOU KNOW WHAT I FELT THAT TIME.
WHILE YOU MUST BE ENJOYING YOU LIFE WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND HERE MY BEST FRIEND LEFT ME SAYING THAT SHE WAS WITH ME BECAUSE OF YOU.
AFTER ALL THIS YOU WANT ME TO FORGIVE YOU. YOU SAID YOU WILL MAKE EVERYTHING LIKE BEFORE, RIGHT, CAN YOU BRING MY PARENTS AND BEST FRIEND BACK. CAN YOU? N...No r...right. ( I broke down in tears)

Jimin- I...I didn't know t...this all happened. I'm really s...sorry Y/N. If I would have known this would have h...happened I would have n...never left you. I was not knowing you were suffering from t...these things. I'm sorry Y/N. I'm sorry. ( I saw him crying too and it breaks me even more)

Y/N- Please leave me alone ( I said while sobbing)

Jimin- Cupcake-

Y/N- I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU HAVE ALREADY DONE MUCH. AND DON'T USE THAT NAME AGAIN.

He left my cabin and I know he must be crying. Thinking of him crying breaks my heart. Yes it does because I still love him. I never stopped loving him.

Every minute, every second, I craved for his love and affection but after what happened because of him I cannot let it go that easily. I can't forgive him that fast.

I packed everything and left for my house. On my way back I was thinking that how am I gonna live with him for a couple of months under the same roof.

As I reached home, I decided to take a warm shower. I always help me to ease my mood and gladly it was Jimin's idea.

Back then when I used to be stressed or had a bad mood he always told me to take a warm shower it will help, and it actually does.

Now when I think of those moments, a sad smile come across my lips. He used to be so clingy that I had habit of him. I also want that phase of my life back but it can't happen. I can't get my parents, best friends and my boyfriend back.

After I was done with my shower I packed my things as I have to leave a day after tomorrow. And cried until I slept.

JIMIN'S POV

When she told me what all happened I was speechless. I was too shocked that she had been through these things. If I would have known it in the first place I would have never left her.

I don't know if she is going to forgive me. And I'm now regretting even more. How can I do this to her. It is obvious that she isn't going to forgive me that easily. How am I going to face her when she will come here?

I was having my hyungs to comfort me while she wasn't have anyone to share her thoughts, feeling and everything. While I was here a traniee here she was suffering from depression. I was travelling here and there for debut but she had to move from Korea because of me.

If she would have done suicide, I wouldn't be able to forgive myself. Her parents die because of me. Her best friend left her because of me.

I reached the dorm and directly entered my room and closed the door. I was still crying. I don't know if hyungs have seen me they must have been worried. They know I was gone to say sorry to Y/N.

I don't know how will I face them. What will I say to them that their Jimin was the only one who was wrong. It was all his mistake that she was suffering and is still suffering.

I cried the while night knowing that in the morning my eye would be swollen and red but I can't help it. Remembering how she told me what all happen makes me cry so bad that I can't do anything.

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