my friends have such better conversations with each other than they do with me
they're all normal and they have the same interests
i just constantly talk about stuff that they don't know or care about because i can't stand reality
they probably think i'm annoying in all honesty
i feel bad that they have to put up with me and all of my stupid shit
i wish i could just shut up and be normal and talk about things that my friends also care about
but they care about reality and i can't stand it
that might be why i fictionalize reality like i do
i hate the person who i "really am"
it's so uncomfortable
and reality is fucking boring
so i just kinda pretend to be this version of myself that isnt real
and i think my friends are getting annoyed with me for it
