Raspberry Oneshots

🫐 Off Of My Chest 🍓

                       Clarification Tags:
Polyglamorous Fiction, Hurt Comfort, Angst, Established Relationship, LGBTQ+ Relationship, Polyam Relationship, F to M Character

• R: All + Neos
• W: She/Her + He/Him + Xe/Xem
• Y: She/Her

Songs For The Fic -
• This Is Home - Cavetown
• Devil Doesn't Bargain - Alec Benjamin
• Let me Down Slowly - Alec Benjamin

                        START (Y's POV) -

"Isn't that the point of a secret...?" I ask, as my boyfriends cackle. I wasn't sure why they were laughing, but it didn't matter as I joined in on their laughing. I didn't care to think about it anymore either. My high-pitched giggling made me scrunch my nose as my laughter halted.

I let out a sigh, fogging up my glasses while covering my face. I didn't quite realize they both were looking at me. Eventually, one of them asked; "Hey, you alright? I've never seen you make that face before." He said as he wiped his eyes, his breath still recovering from laughing so hard. It was funny to see her like that, our conversations have ended like that a dozen times.

I smiled, shaking off the question. I didn't have to respond, why would I? Hell, I don't even know what's wrong. It didn't matter anyways. W just stared at me with an eyebrow raised semi-jokingly, attempting to make me laugh again.

"But why won't you tell me," I ask, "I get it's a secret, but why can't you tell me what BBC means?" That just made them both burst out laughing again.

I take yet another sigh, but not of annoyance or sadness. I guess I'm just used to them acting like this. They're idiots, and I wouldn't have them any other way. ...however...

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I walked into the bathroom and swung my backpack to rest below the sink. I think that could've cracked my laptop. I didn't care though, I'm sure it's fine.

I combed back my short brown hair with my fingers, looking into the mirror. My hair is about below my shoulders and rests under my neck. The thick dense curls and knots that snap as my fingers comb through hurt, but, I kind of deserved it.

I lifted my head as I looked into the mirror once more, my stomach churned. It all was making sense, and I didn't want it to. It wasn't supposed to be this way.

"You're so pretty darling."
"You're the best girlfriend ever."
"She's my girlfriend thank you very much."

Those words hurt. It's all becoming clear. Why I always like my hair shorter, why I enjoy not having a chest, and why I enjoy the slight Adam's apple I have, though I'm not sure why exactly I have it.

I'm a girl, girls aren't supposed to have anything like that.

Oh, what's the point in denying anymore? Of course I know I'm not a girl, I've known for a long time. I hate my voice, my hair, my feminine features, all that. Ever since my boyfriends told me about the term transgender. It clicked like a switch.

But it's just, my parents. They'd disown me, kick me out, hurt me, or god knows what if I told them.

My arms started to feel weak as I realized I started crying. Teardrops fell and created a small puddle right in front of the drain of the sink. It wasn't worth it.

I slid down onto the floor, knees collapsing as my body shook with sobs. I didn't want to be like this. Why did my cards play this way, I never wanted this. My arms wrapped around my knees, jeans tight around my thighs.

I can't do this.

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• Y: He/Him + They/Them
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                       3rd Person POV:

R has been watching Y like a hawk, ze know something has to be up. And W knows as well. It wasn't until Thursday, November 30th, an entire year since they all got together that it was revealed.

Y spoke up, holding onto their arm, rubbing the small hairs back and forth. "Hey, R and W, can I talk to you?"

R shot it's head up, "Huh? Yeah, what's up?" W did the same, "Yeah of course." They both smiled, calming Y's anxiety just a bit.

"So... I've been thinking."

That sentence burned a fire in both their chests.

"I think I might.." He took a breath, air trapped in his throat, "Actually never mind, never mind just forget it."

That didn't sit right with their boyfriends, "No Y, tell us. We wouldn't judge, we promise. Right, R?" Xey said as they nudged R with xer shoulder.

R bunched up his nose, but nodded void's head as soon as ey were done, "Of course, we would never judge you. Just tell us."

Y shook his head, biting his lip, "Well I... I think I'm trans."

The room went silent.

"Are you fucking kidding me?!" W whisper yelled, throwing xer arms up dramatically and walking away, though coming back not but a few seconds later.

R cackled, "Is that it?" Void whispered as he put his hand on Y's shoulder, "Ignore her, xey're being an idiot."

Y continued to bite their lip, a bit confused at the reaction of his boyfriends.

"I'm dating 2 men now?! Wow." She said chuckling.

"You're not mad?" Y whispered, mostly confused.

Both W and R started laughing, "Of course not Y! Why would we be?" W smiled as R retracted stars hand, "What are your pronouns, darling?"

Y began to laugh with relief, "He/They please." He smiled, not realizing his eyes were trying to spill over with tears.

"Hey hey, honey, you should never worry about something like that. Plus, who would want us nerds? You're way out of our league." R cackled, taking Y's hip into his arm, "We've got you, always."

W ruffled Y's hair, she always described it as feeling like a doormat, but R could never agree.

"We're always with you, forever."

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