Tw: Cursing, mention of social anxiety/ effects of social anxiety
Tommy POV
Ah. The classic saying that everyone says which confirms the opposite of what it means. The 2 words this entire chapter is based on. "I'm Fine". Now i know i'm fine is a very common saying but it's what i say to all questions that are personal and can get me into trouble at the foster house.
Examples: "Are you ok?" "I'm fine", "How did you get that big bruise on your arm?" "Don't worry about it, i'm fine" "b-" "i'm fine, really". You get the point.
I've never been good with people as i lost those abilities long ago right after my parents started abusing me. Instead of developing human interaction skills i learned survival skills to stay alive for what i didn't know then would be the rest of my life.
With Dream or the Wastaken or the Notfounds or penalty house. Stay quiet do exactly as your told exactly when your told. Don't put up a fight, always call them sir or ma'am even if they tell you it's ok to call them their real name unless they prove to violent if you don't then do call them what they requested to be called to save your skin.
Never insult them they can always change their mind about sending you back to the orphanage even on the same day of the hour or a couple minutes before your presence was needed back at the orphanage.
Remember; all of them are cruel and heartless. They will and can break your spirits if you leave anything for them to fiddle with. They hate you and will break you any chance they get, so don't give them one. Be better and smarter than i was in my first few days here. I used to be a fighter at heart. Those days died young. It's either kill or be killed in this world.
And for some stupid reason my heart it set on surviving even if that means i will push everyone away.
I know. You shouldn't push people away. You want people in your life. To support you. To love you. But i don't want that. I don't NEED that to survive, so i will push everyone away.
Keep everyone at arms length so i can always push them away.
I've never survived by trusting people. So even if they hate me or love me i shall push then away. That's just life...
Not really contributing to the plot but it gives you insight on how he sees things and a little bit as to why he see things that way. Thanks for reading!
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