Random Thoughts/Stories

💁‍♀️{Hair} Esidisi

haha.. I'm so touch-starved for some affection- especially if it's smthn about caring my body which I can't do :,)
(Started: Jan 19, 2023)

Waking up early, I stared at my ceiling for a couple of minutes before rubbing my eyes and sitting up. I look towards the bedroom door, noticing that they had already left. I blinked a couple of times at the door before putting my attention on the wall clock, 4:37 AM. 'That's way too early...' I thought to myself as I hear the bedroom door open. I turn my head back at the door to see Esidisi walk in. "Good Morning, little flame. Had a relaxing night, yesterday?" He questions with a soft voice. I hummed deep, throat dry as Esidisi sat on the bed beside me. "Here, love. Drink some water first. You're quite early today," he says, giving me a glass of water. I grabbed the glass, slowly drinking it as Esidisi puts the tray on the side table. As I almost finish the water, I felt Esidisi's hand caress my head. Going down my hair, he carefully unties the knots on my messy hair. Placing the glass down on my lap, I rubbed my eyes as I felt Esidisi remove the glass on my lap and place it on the tray. I moaned as I crawl my way toward Esidisi and place my head on his shoulder. "Let's get you ready for today, shall we?" Esidisi asked as I mumbled out sleepily, "It's too early..." Esidisi softly grins, showing his fangs as I grumble when he decreases his heat. "Esiiiii.... please..." I let out as I hugged his torso and nuzzled my head on his back. "Not a chance. C'mon, it's finally time for you to start taking care of yourself," he commands, standing up as I cling to his back. He lets out a laugh, feeling my arms slowly lose their grip as I start to fall down slowly. Feeling the vibrations on my arms, I furrowed my eyebrows with a pout, eyes still closed.

-Time Skip- (This Time Skip is brought to you by me losing motivation already :))

As I sat in front of the mirror, I stared at my wet hair before staring at Esidisi's reflection taking a hand towel. Watching him come back to me, he sat down behind me as he takes my wet hair with the towel. Holding the towel, he heats up his hand making the drying process quicker. He does this a couple more times until my hair is completely dry. He chuckles nervously upon seeing my messy knotty hair. "Geez... you really need to take a lot of time with your hair huh?" He questions before taking a comb and brushing my thick hair. He does this with such careful and gentle hands, making sure that he doesn't accidentally tug on my hair. He separates my hair into 4 parts. Clipping the other 3, he started with the hair behind. Brushing it softly, he hummed as I stare at his reflection do my hair. I feel my cheeks burn, still not used with how beautiful and gorgeous they are. Esidisi's features never fail to make me flustered, especially when he has that beautiful smirk of his. Whether that be a playful smirk or a deivilish one, it'll never fail to do it's magic on me. I took in more of his details, a habit of mine when I can't do anything but stay still. I stared at his ocean blue eyes and his nose piercing. I then stared at his perfectly sculptured cheek and jawbone. My eyes moved upward to stare at his exposed horns. He rarely shows them but I never miss the opportunity to gaze and adore his horns every time it's out. I didn't know how long I have been staring at his soft fluff hair and gorgeous horns but I know it's been long when I stared back at his eyes to see it staring at me. My cheeks painted itself with red as Esidisi chuckled. "You can't help but admire a beautiful gorgeous being like me, huh?" He teased, finally taking note that he's already doing the 2nd part of my hair. I averted my eyes away and stared at my phone nearby as he continues treating my hair with such care I never gave it. 'Curse you..' I thought to myself as my face reddens. I'll never get used to things such as getting caught admiring them. It's always so- cute and just- makes my heart flutter dammit! I furrowed my eyebrows, stopping myself from giving a large frown. "Aww~ what a cute adorable face!" Esidisi stated as my eyes widen from embarrassment. "Just- just do your thing, Esi!" I say, eyes closed with a wavering mouth, embarrassed by getting called such things. He chuckles, giving my head a massage before getting back on hand.

He hums as he comb my hair, "You say you have patience but can't do your hair?" I frown as I look at Esidisi through the mirror. He took a glance at the mirror to see me glaring at him before chuckling and staring back at the task he's doing. "Be more patient with yourself. It's more important than others." We sat in the room with a comforting silence as I took in Esidisi's words. 'That's literally love yourself first than others.' I deadpanned as I look at my eyes through the mirror. It holds a lot of grief, sorrow, and guilt. I smile slightly upon looking at myself. I still somehow love myself.. no that's wrong. 'You only love yourself because people around you loves you. But when they're gone.. you hate yourself.' That's a better way to say it. Esidisi loves me. And that makes me positive of myself especially with how many things he can compliment me in a month straight. But once I'm all alone, I hate myself. Without their presence or even if I think about them, I still hate myself. Esidisi realize the shift of mood from me and decided to distract me from what I have been thinking. "Hey, the others rn are still busy but once they come back, we'll go shopping later." I was brought back to reality as I stared at him. "Do you want anything to buy later?" He questions me as he combs my hair, now doing the 3rd part. "More clothes," I say before hearing Esidisi laugh. "You already have a room full of clothes! Why more?" He questions before I winced as my hair got tugged a little. "Shit. I'm sorry, little flame!" Esidisi says in concern while caressing my head. "Did it hurt that much?" He questions before combing my hair with his hands slowly.

(UGHHH LAZINESS IS REALLY A HUGE BITCH, THIS WAS A YEAR AGO- Now I have no motivation and ideas whatsoever to continue this. It's literally shocking me that I made oneshots of PillarMen in the modern world dating a human. Like wtf, that ain't me at all.)