Motivation

Kellz

Kelly POV

Born Kelliyah Haty Kelzman. Brownskin. Stands at about 5'10.18. Skinny. Name known by, Kelly Kellz. I was born into the struggle. Never known who to turn to for help. In the back of my mind I guess I just really don't tryst anyone. I don't have friends anymore. They never stood for what I did. Everyone does name calling cause I'm poor in money. No one takes the time to actually get to know that me. Its always been 'ugly black bitch' .'you ain't shit and u aint never gone be shit'. 'Broke hurtin bitch'. These words of judgment don't hurt me anymore. I've heard them from so many people I lost count. Now when people say hurtful shit I just smile and say thank you. I always been the one to pull everyone in my family up when there down put the only person that pulls me up is my cousin Chavinne aka Chav. She is the only person who is real to me. She does my hair and makeup and let's me have her old clothes. She is the real MVP to me. I live with my mom who beats me sinless. I can fight but its a sin to hit your parents so I take my beatings and I move on with my day. Today she hit me wit a bat in the back cause she said I stole her crack money. But truth is she spent it on crack last week. I mostly stay in my room or gone. I like to just go walking. Sometimes I wish someone would jump out and kill me. I cry in peace. I just hope my life gets better or I die. Today I have school so it 5 am I woke up took a shower and hot dressed and left. Since I got hit wit a bat this morning it was painful to walk. I felt someone burning a hole in my face. I looked up to see the most popular boy in school Jarieh. I looked like he was going to say something to me but I walked away fastly. I hopped on the city bus and waited tell we got to the school. I had to go to work today so the pain would never end. I work at the Pancake House. I make a ok amount. I keep my phone bill and the light bill paid. The bus finally got to my school and I pulled the string so it would stop for me to get off. After I got off I walked to the school and sat on the steps. I felt like shit and no one loved me but I just cried out of pain for what felt like hours.
People arrived at school and I stopped crying and just stood in the corner. I seen my cousin and she waved I waved back. Flinching out if pain. See the day before hitting me wit a bat my mom pushed me down the stairs and punched me in the ribs repeatedly. I could feel death coming soon in my future and I couldn't wait. My cousin walked up to me wit the boy I seen this morning and she spoke.

"Hey Kelly Kellz." She said poking me. I flinched in pain. She looked at me and spoke." She did it again?"

"Na I'm good. Just a little sore from work." I lied. She lifted up my shirt to see my black and blue body.

"Why? Why don't u ask for help?"

"I rather not discus my business in front of him. & I'm fine." I said pulling down my jacket and shirt from out her hand.

"What was it this time."

"Stairs, hands & bat."

"A bat? Wtf is her problem?"

"She on crack duhh!" I looked at Jarieh and he looked sorry,mad and in pain himself. Yeah he talks about me wit the rest if the school. I spoke.

"Umm....Jarieh I know u talk bout me....but can you just not bring this up please.... I don't care if u talk bout me but I really don't need this out." I said nice and calm even wit a smile.

"I'm sor-g.c.o." Shawnee Jarieh girl walks over.

"No no no! U over here wit a bum and a ugly bitch? ewwh! Find yo way back over to my section or be known as single."

"Get the fuck out my face! Bitch yo pussy weak, yo breath smell like dick, & they both look better than you! You sucked my dick ONCE along wit Fero, Martin, & Ashton. Bitch get from round me for I forget you a female & don't forget I been single NEVER will I wife a thot/hoe like yourself." Well excuse me Shawnee the thot.

I walked away and went to class. After school was out I had to go right to work. I was walking out the school doors. My pain has gotten worse it feels I called my boss Carol she's really understanding.

"Hi Carol I was wondering if I could people take the day off."

"Sure sweety take two but u owe me."

"I owe u big time thank you again."

"Your welcome." She hung up. I was about to walked into Jarieh.

"I'm sorry." I was walking off. He grabbed me.

"Like I was saying earlier I'm sorry, I'm sorry I talked about you, I'm sorry I couldn't help, I'm sorry that you have to go through what you are and most of all I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being a bully and not helping."

"Its okay.... to be honest I really don't care that you talked about me your not the only one. I know I'm a bum,I'm sticks, I'm ugly. No one has to tell me anymore. Facts are facts and I get that now. But don't be sorry for me. I realize there are people like me and there are people like you. There are more yous' than mes'. So don't waste your time on me. I appreciate your time and I thank you."

"Don't brain wash your self to think I'm better than you. Your not ugly at all. Your very beautiful and I like you. I know I'm a asshole but the people around me make me this way. Your perfect and don't let anyone tell you other wise."

"Thank you..... I-I'm speechless." I smiled. This time it was real. I felt thing I never felt before.

"Take a ride with me."

"Okay." We got in his car.