Motivation

I Felt

Kelly POV
  .....(Flash Back)

On the drive me and Jarieh talked. He made me feel different and special. He took me back to his house he started kissing on me. He took me to his big bedroom. He started undressing and we made love. It was slow and felt great. After it happend he seen the blood. He asked me.
"Y-You was a virgin?"

"Yes." I said shyly. He got dressed and dropped me off. He didn't talk me on the way home. I felt alone again. I was now scared to go to school. 

2 days later(Flash Back Over)

I was at school. I have been avoiding Jarieh cause of what happened. Me and my cousin was walking through the halls and I looked up to see Jarieh. We made eye contact but I quickly put my head back down and walked into the bathroom and cried. I was crying for a minute the someone walked in. I never cried loud so I just continued crying. I heard a knock on the stall. I whiped my face and opened the door to see Jarieh.

"Why you crying ma?"

"I'm-I'm scared."

"Of?"

"You." I said looking down

"Why me?"

"You got the power to break me. You took my virginity you know my business and I'm scared your going to tell it."

"Ma." He lifted my face up.

"I didn't know you was a virgin. When I seen the blood I felt bad and didn't know what to say. It was my first time making love. To be honest I'm scared 2. I'm scared cause I've never felt this way about a girl before. I usually fuck and duck. But with you I promise its different. Can I ask you something?"

"Yes."

"Do you wanna be my girl. Like my life. My R.O.D. & soon my Wife & mother of my kids?"

I cried. I cried because I was happy. I cried cause I felt complete. I cried cause my life felt better. "Yes! Yes!" I smiled still crying he held me. He kissed me. He made me feel good. Man I never wanted him to stop holding me. The bell rung. He kissede and started to walk away. I grabbed his arm.

"Yeah bae?" He said turning around and smiling.

"You gone hold me tonight?"

"Yea bae meet me at my car after school."

He kissed me & grabbed my ass. "See u later bae." He whispered.

"See you." We both walked out and went different ways.

I went to my class and I think he skipped. After school I walked to Jarieh car and waited on him. He came over looking mad. We got in the car. I grabbed his hand. He yanked away. It made me sad. All I wanna do is help. We pulled up to his house and went in. I went upstairs to his bedroom. I sat on the bed and got on Wattpad to read. He walked in a took my phone out my hands.

"We need to talk."

"Bout what?" I asked

"You."

"What did I do?"

"Nothin. Idk if we should be together."

"Mhm. That's fine. Can you take me home?"

"No talk to me tell me how you feel."

"I'm hurt. I feel used. It makes me hate myself more. But hey I'll be ok."

"Ma. I love you. Ight? I ain't never said that to a girl before besides my mom. I'm just lost cause I'm not use to these feeling so some times I be off and confused."