Reborn as Dust sans?

Pg 1. Lavender

I bring the lavender to my face and give it a big sniff. Times like this are relaxing, away from everything, everyone. As much as I like drama and creating chaos, sometimes it's good for a break.

I walk back over to the blossoming tree and sit at the base, resting my head against it. There was pretty much an open field around me, thin grass and a few bushes here and there. Further out were a lot of trees in rows against rows, blocking any sunlight from creeping through the cracks. This place was hidden from the rest of the world and so was I whenever I was here.

I always wanted to be free from the world, free to live as someone new, but, I could probably run away and pull it off. I am an outcast to society after all. No one would care! most people around me are telling me to as well so what difference would it make if a child with no potential in life ran away?

Nothing, it wouldn't make a difference. I don't make a difference. I never have, nor will I ever.

I have the freedom too, the opportunity is in my grasp, but to take it? I couldn't bare the burden of leaving the ones dearest to me alone in this sickening world.

I'm barely surviving in it myself. Every day is a struggle, the ever-growing threat of the entire world pushing against my back, intimidatingly. The threat of other people, the threat of myself.

~~ Need to completely redo this book I swear waaaah