Alter Ego - The Librarian

Chapter 4

A week has passed since I met other versions of myself. As we enter the second week of February 2022, the powerful experiences and new knowledge from that meeting inspire me to move forward with enthusiasm. It's like their presence is with me, quietly influencing my thoughts and guiding my decisions.

In these recent days, it feels as if their ghostly essence surrounds me, subtly affecting my awareness. Their whispers in my mind offer valuable insights that blend seamlessly with my thoughts. It's like a cooperative dance where their wisdom and my intuition work together, helping me navigate daily life.

This unique connection creates a mix of emotions—an indescribable but real bond that goes beyond ordinary understanding. Their support, like an unseen hand, gently guides me toward making the right choices. Despite the unusual nature of this connection, there's a reassuring feeling that, in some mysterious way, they are always there, weaving encouragement and strength into the fabric of my life.

As I stick to my good habits and keep doing what I love, the advice and encouragement from those other versions of me stay with me. One version is all about staying healthy, so I make sure to exercise and eat well. Another version, who's into music, pushes me to express my feelings through songs.

Surprisingly, their influence goes beyond just me. It also affects my relationship with my girlfriend. We connect over singing, enjoying poetry, and reading religious texts together. It's like their ideas have become a part of who I am, pushing me to be the best I can be. I'm really thankful for that.

Pouring my energy into writing has been rewarding, especially as I see my efforts being acknowledged. Offers to co-author for various anthologies and publishers have fueled my excitement. However, the pinnacle of my aspirations rests on a response from the Authors Workshop at Siliman, a prestigious writing program I've longed to be a part of.

Anticipation heightens with each passing day as I eagerly await their response. Sending them my portfolio and writing samples was a significant step, and now, the wait is a bit nerve-wracking. Despite the uncertainty, I maintain a positive outlook, recognizing that, regardless of the outcome, I'm committed to continuing my writing journey and honing my craft.

The prospect of joining the Authors Workshop at Siliman is a beacon of aspiration, and the waiting game only intensifies my eagerness to contribute to this esteemed community. Regardless of the response, my dedication to writing remains unwavering as I persistently strive to improve and evolve in my creative pursuits.

As I pondered recent events, the realization hit me—today was the long-awaited day for my rendezvous with the businessman version of myself. A surge of anticipation mixed with nervous excitement as I looked forward to delving into his mind and experiences. The prospect of gaining insights and knowledge from this parallel self intrigued me, making the meeting an eagerly anticipated event.

To prepare for this encounter, I decided to center myself. With closed eyes, I embarked on a journey of meditation, taking deliberate, slow breaths to soothe my nerves and steady my mind. As the outside world faded, I entered a mental realm.

In the theater of my mind, I visualized myself suspended in the cosmic vastness, stars streaking by in a mesmerizing blur. Propelled forward, I aimed for a radiant, shining light on the horizon. With every passing moment, a palpable connection grew stronger between me and my businessman counterpart. The anticipation heightened, yet a serene calmness accompanied the excitement, creating a harmonious blend as I approached the luminous destination, ready to unlock the insights he held.

As I journeyed toward the radiant light, a serene transition enveloped me. Emerging from the brightness, I found myself surrounded by a pristine white expanse. Slowly descending, I sensed an unusual crunch beneath my feet, reminiscent of stepping on delicate glass.