GIRL UNDER ME- GUMTHESERIES

that horrible Tuesday (please, I beg you)

Tuesday

Mon Pov

How could you do this to me? 

Do you know how we call people like you? A whore

You betrayed me.

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It's been weeks since Sam completely lost her mind in the middle of the street because of the Kirk's incident. To add more gas to the fire, Nop showed up at the best moment infuriating her to no end. 

I have been receiving hundreds of missed phone calls from Sam, Kirk, Yuki, Tee and Jim. Specially from Sam. I didn't want to speak to no one. Not even my parents.

I understand her confusion to why I was holding hands with Kirk however cussing me out for going back home with Nop does not give her the right to devalue me as a human being, her lover as she says I am. It is concerning my level of uncertainty when it comes to her love for me. She says she loves me, but does she really? The love of your life isn't a whore who wonders from men to men to get satisfaction. You should consider the love of your life as the pilar to your foundations, someone important, someone to be respected, protected and never be granted to outdoors because of your temper tantrums.

And once she's concluded being pissed with you she rings the doorbell to your parents' house asking for forgiveness on her knees, pressuring you to give yourself to her again.

and again

and again

Now that I think about it, every time I've forgiven her I metaphorically gave a piece of the soul I had to her. Till I lost it.

I need to cut ties, I won't be doing the same shit again. I will reinvent myself. 

Start new and fresh. No Sam, no Kirk, no Grandmother, no Diversity Pop, no nothing.

That's why I find myself at midnight in front of the well known gigantic metallic doors that lead me to my usual work spot. I know she's still in her office. She's the boss, it is her duty being the last to leave. She always pronounces those words when I'm waiting for her to finish her tasks so we can have our Friday date nights.

Reminiscent-

Love, Im ready!- Sam announces from her office standing up from her chair and stretching her back.

Finally baby, I imagine you had a tiring day- I greet her stepping closer till we're face to face and start rubbing her shoulders to relieve some tension.

Indeed it was, but God it is so much worth it when I get to spy on you from this room. I have been dying to take you out tonight, you look incredibly delicious and gorgeous, just like everyday. Do you know how proud I am to be your girlfriend?- she roams her warm hands on my lower back, showing off that sexy smirk she does when flirting with me.

Gosh, stop saying that! I don't know how to act when you tease me- I bury my head on her chest.

-She laughs- Now you know how it feels to be completely flushed. Specially when your partner puts you to test... wearing those impossibly short skirts.

-She guides her hands from behind my thigh to fully cupping my ass- when she adds that extra pep on her step to make your mouth water.

-She husks in my ear- when she walks across the space before your office just to get attention from you, which she successfully does because she is impossible to deny when you're in the same room as her. I'm no dumb to your strategies Ms Kornkamon. Remember Im always having an eye on you.

Then I guess I have to walk more frequently across the office to have you keeping an eye on me. You know I love Daddy's attention- I whisper against her lips, raising an eyebrow.

She turns me around so her breasts are pressed against my back and her crotch pointing against my ass when I get the familiar sensation of the toy she uses to hold me down in bed, unshamessely rubbing around my area- Kornkamon, I've been trying to withhold myself from grabbing you out from your chair and take you to this room to unmercilessly fuck that pretty little cunt of yours until I have you sweating and panting on my day to day desk. Should we also make it a day to day routine?

Shouldn't it be better to call it a night to night thing?- I bravely ask.

Oh, so you've already made up your mind about it?- She firmly holds my hips

Whatever Boss decides, Mon does.

And viceversa, never forget that- she sensually kisses me.

Then in this case, Mon decides to take this sexual desire to the house.

House it is then- she circles her arms around my waist guiding me outside the building.

-

Mon what are you talking about? You're not going anywhere.

Yes I am, Sam. I resign.

If it is because of Kirk, it is already solved- she breaths out exhausted.

It is not about Kirk! It never was!- I shout trying to make her understand.

There's silence, an uncomfortable one. She seems shocked that I have raised my voice, we've never shouted to one another.

I've actually never been shown the love you say you have for me, you cursed me out in public for something I didn't do, that shows you don't trust me, you don't prioritize me. How many times have I told you to be emotionally honest with me? You never show your true colors, I always have to guess what you're thinking and put your feelings first, always forgiving you for your own sake, even if it was no good for mine. I am consumed, Sam, I am tired. Please just let me go.

She slowly gets up from her chair but decidedly corners me to a wall, wrapping her arms around me and touching her forehead with mine even though I slightly resisted, she got to rest them together.

Hey hey, Mon, look at me- She grabbed my chin making me look at her. I swear I never get tired of her eyes, I bet she can read my soul with them.

I'm sorry, I never meant to curse you. Please, just don't do anything crazy. We'll be fine together. I promise you from now-

No Sam, that's not how it works. Didn't you listen to what I just said? Im tired of your apologies. I've forgiven you too many times, it is your turn to grant me my wish of resignation. It is what I need, what I deserve- I cry begging her, crumpling her blazer with my fisted hands.

But is it what you want? Huh?! Do you want me live without you, I CAN'T MON! I CAN'T!- She desperately cries on my neck.

Several minutes pass and I try to pry myself from her grip on my body, but she resists, tightening her hold on me. She was suffocating me to the point where I felt I couldn't breath. So I aggressively start to jerk her away, so she does. We stand there, studying each other until-

I need time, Sam. Please comprehen-

GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HERE. I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN- Various stacks of papers from her desk ended up on the floor.

DO YOU HEAR ME? OUT I SAID!- She cries throwing her studio lamp to a wall. So I run as fast as I can to not get hit by anything that was in her way, though I know the last thing she'd want to do in life is to put me in danger. 

I know what I did was out of a sudden, but I believe we'll both grow from this and become stronger.

Together or not.