GIRL UNDER ME- GUMTHESERIES

not now, not ever

Hi- Sam said once I approached the table. Her stare permanent on my figure which left me confused since I didn't know if she was disgusted or was admiring my dress.

-.Take a seat Mon, it has been long enough without you. You need to update us-. Jim who was sat next to me pointed her finger at my face with a sassy remark.

-.Well, if you insist, I have been focusing on myself these months. As you know, I have a new home- I made sure there was emphasis on "new home" and glanced directly at Sam, making her feel small and bow her head. I know she hasn't been disturbing with her previous tactics on casual stop overs in my new apartment, but I recall she forced me to give her the address just after the intense orgasm she provided me, which is so not cool, but I forgive her since she has behaved well and respected my space these months.

-.I am also graduating on law school this summer. It has been a journey and a half to finish it but I made it and I'd like all of you to attend the ceremony.

-Everyone at the table cheered, the most excited was Sam, she had the biggest smile I've seen on her face, her eyes shining from pride.

-. And lastly and unfortunately to all of you, I hope, I am moving back to England, Oxford's Law Council has selected me to start right away my seminaries and give my work background a push to the future.

-There was an uncomfortable and incredibly tense silence.

-.Oh, wow, didn't expect that Mon-. Tee expressed looking at Sam for a few short seconds.

-.Yeah, right. You definitely surprised us-. Jim stared at Sam

-.Well, what else can we say? Congratulations Mon, you worked your ass off and you deserve this opportunity and every positive thing that comes your way, even if that is abroad- Kade announced.

-. Thank you so much, you don't know how it means to me.

-.I have to go to the restroom- Sam quickly replied and rushed off the table.

-. Did I say something wrong?-I questioned

-.Of course not, Mon. But you and all of us know that Sam has not gotten over with you. She might appear strong and unbreakable to be able to face you, but she has the softest heart when it comes to you. I suppose she doesn't want you to leave.

-.But I have to Jim, it is my future that we are talking about. A secured and stable one at that. Would I have that staying here and waiting on Sam to mature?

-.Mon, you don't have to wait on Sam because she will never not be jealous and possessive over you. You have to accept that. She will never mature in that aspect and yeah, there is no life success guaranteed on getting back with her, but she is my friend and I have never been more sure by saying that pure and honest love is guaranteed if you stay with her. Im not being biased, I'm just letting you know how the situation currently is. It is your decision to make. 

Everybody wants success in every aspect of their existence, however, such thing does not exist without sacrifice and consistency.

-.I have to talk to her, excuse me.

My heels clicked against the marbled floor of the restaurant on my way to the restroom's entry, I did not hear a thing. My mind, body and soul were focused on directing me in autopilot to my ex girlfriend. I push to heavy door and found the most horrifying scene I've ever witnessed. Sam snorting cocaine. Our eyes met. I don't know for how long has she been doing this, but this will be the last time she does it. 

I blow away the remanent flakes laid on the white sink.

-.What the fuck do you think you're doing, huh?-. She grabs my arm yanking me to her, her front pressed to my back. I turn around and bravely face her.

-. I should be the one asking you the exact same. Are you stupid?! Get rid of that shit now!

-.First you leave me, make my life a living hell, a torture while waiting for you to get back and this is how you repay me? By leaving again to fucking England?

-.This is not the topic we are here to discuss about, Sam! I swear to God if you don't throw that thing away forever I-

-.You what? WHAT? YOU WILL LEAVE? OH, I AM SURE YOU ARE USED TO THAT BY NOW, MON. LET ME BE.

-.You are one selfish manipulative piece of crap.

-.Well, you aren't perfect either, I suggest you not to get a partner in England just to break up with them for their smallest flaw or mistake they make. 

-. Is that supposed to offend me? Taking care of me? Something I haven't had the chance to do since we became lovers?

-. Well, that's exactly what I've been doing, taking care of myself, but you somehow are stopping me which you don't have the right to because you are nothing to me, not my lover, nor girlfriend, nor wife, no nothing, so thank you for waisting your time, now leave.

-. So that's how this ends? 

-. Yes.

-I grab her by the neck with both hands and passionately kiss her, she immediately parts her lips, mending our tongues together and giving me a warm welcome. We break apart. It has been nearly a year since we've been intimate with each other and I don't know how I survived for that long. Suddenly, I'm being lifted inside a bathroom stall.

-.Don't you dare leave. Not now, not ever.

-.I have to Sam, this is a great chance for me.

-.I'll pay you better seminaries in Bangkok, I got you baby.

-.But I want to do this by myself. I want to be-

-. Be economically independent, I know. If that's the case I will give you the best contacts from Chief secretaries to CEOs from the companies of the Thai Big Four. You will not have to worry about anything anymore, you are safe with me- she sensually but sweetly kisses every fraction of my face. I start to melt.

-. Okay

-. Okay? 

-. Yea, I love you.

-. I love you- She nuzzles her nose against the column of my neck

-. I think we've been so stupid doing the things we've done, both of us. But Sam, promise me you will cut that shit you have going on with cocaine. 

-. I will do that from right now. You are the one who I am addicted to.

-. Seriously, when you need help urgently just talk to me. This is not a one sided relationship. We both respect and lift each other up.

-. Yes ma'am.

-. Also, we won't be having sex until you've sobered up.

-. Whatever my love says.

-. That's right.

-. Shall we get going? The food's getting cold. 

-. I'm sure it is cold by now.

-.Quick question, when you say we'll have sex once I am sober does that mean we'll start having sex like wild animals once I feel sober?

-.Once I decide wether or not is okay to have sex.

-. Mmm, I like this bossy version of you. It makes me want to fuck that attitude off of you- She whisper hotly in my ear.

-Don't start now, it's an order- I say grabbing the collar of her shirt.