(Hiatus) Selfishness (Date A Live Fanfic)

Ch 9 -Deranged-

Shido pov

I was sitting on the couch in the living room, chillin when suddenly Kotori come in with a very determine face like she have made up here mind over something

Kotori: Shido. We need to talk.

Shido: Okay. (I take a sip of my tea not beer this time)

Kotori: Good. First off, what exactly happened to you?

Shido: What do you mean?

Kotori: (sign) What I mean is why are you like this? The caring and loving brother I know was nothing like you right now.

Shido: There nothing changes with me. I'm always like this.

Kotori: You were never like this. You've change into a person I never knew, right now. (she said getting frustrated and she raise her voice)

Shido: How so? (I begin lose it)

Kotori: You've change so much that I feel like I never knew you before. You sometime act like an animal. A Deranged Animal. (She shouted)

Shido: You're fuckin A right I'm deranged! How could I not be? (I shout with voice full of frustration)

Kotori: I should've locked you, long time ago, you idiot.

Shido: Do it. Do it. I'll put you in the f*cking ground with the rest of them. (I say in a treatening tone)

Kotori: What? Do you think this is some kind of game? (She ask serious)

Shido: This is not a game to me! Alright? This is a f*cking way of life.

Kotori: I am you family.

Shido: Yeah? I got nothing. No one give a f*ck about me. If you're my family then why are you always make me suffer? Why do I always feels alone? Why our parents always leave us? Why do  they ignore their responsibility to us? Why do we even live in this city if this place is dangerous? WHY? WHY?

Kotori:....(she lost for words)

Reine: Shin..

Shido: SHUT UP!!! (I stand up walk to the front door)

Kotori: Where are you going? It's night time.

Shido: I want to go for a walk.

I take a stroll around the residential area, I was so frustrated, even in the f*cking past she still annoys me with her attitude, that little sister I used to know gone because of she became a spirit and make a Commander by that damn Ratatoskr

I curse you, Mio, Woodman, Westcott, Ellen, I curse you all to the pit

I hate it all, yet I have no choice but to face this all

Right now I was sitting on a swing at the park, enjoying the quiet and peaceful night under the cold glow of the moon

Suddenly I felt someone hugging from behind, I felt no hostility only concern and love from it

It was Tohka, she manifest by herself without me summoning her

She didn't say a word, just continue to hug me and it was warm and it ease the pain in my heart

Shido: Tohka? How are you able to manifest yourself?

Tohka: Don't mind it shido. I will always be with you.

Shido: Why?

Tohka: it is as you said before, you and I don't want to be alone. If it was not you who accepts me I will always be alone. There is no one else will accept a person who only cause destruction.