(Hiatus) Selfishness (Date A Live Fanfic)

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Shido Itsuka, a boy who destined to save the world it's destruction or so they say but in truth is the responsibility and burden was force upon his shoulder

He was force to risk his life dating a spirit, a highly unstable being with extraordinary strength

He struggles a lot as the story unfold and at the end he was nothing but a hero that was never being appreciated by the one he save and that broke him

He was broken further more after learning that his real mother (Mio) intend to use him in a ritual in order to revive her dead lover

He was looked down by the society as they call him a playboy as he date multiple girls at once

Some calls him womanizer and even pedophile because of Yoshino and Natsumi

This also cause him to start drinking to drink away his pain

Sometime he would go to the bar and get drunk all night and settles in the alley way like a junky causing people to treat like trash and even spit on his face

He who have no hope in life anymore drag his own body to his home where he can rest

As he reached his home he was welcome by violence as the girls are now angry because he leaves without any notice

The spirit have pushed him pass his limit as a human being

They treated him like he was nothing but a low life, maggot piece of shit that worth nothing and only deserve being step on

This have broke him because as a human being, he too crave for love but all he received was violence

...Life is cruel...he thought

This have put his morality on the edge and now he crave for vengeance to all who have hurt him

Shido pov

I'm Shido Itsuka, I am an ordinary human or at least that's what I believe. I live a peaceful life as a high schooler but my life have turn upside down

The peaceful life I own was now ruined, turn to shit, gone ever since I was recruited to join a secret organization called Ratatoskr by my own sister who was one of their Commander

The organization vow to protect all spirit and give them a normal life but to do that they have force me to risk my life to date the spirits and seal them

I was never given any option as I was just a naive boy at that time just agree to help them but that was a mistake and now I suffered the consequences

I began to regret all of my past decision as now I have spoils them to rotten and create a monster

They force me to a date everyday and all my energy were waste for nothing

I don't have time to even take care of my own house and now it stinks. It's like a sewer. It stinks and it smells like shit and I can't get the stink out of my nose.

I began to lament about what I've done wrong to deserve all this

Sometime I think of just give up on life but suddenly I remember I still have my little sister, yes she must understand me

But I decided to push that thought aside as I remember that my cute little sister was gone since that day

Then I realized that sometime the source of a problem comes from yourself

This have wake me up and now I have found my path

Yes  I have to change myself in order for a chance to happen

I will redo my life and prevent all this from happening

Yeah no more the good me

Suddenly I felt like something build up inside of me and it is the desire for revenge