𝑳𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒓 [Kenma x Reader]

 𝑳𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝑨𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏

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I keep hurting Y/n, being the worst boyfriend anyone could have. This whole week I've decided to ignore them. I want them to hate me, I need them to hate me.

I cheated on them. Not because I wanted to, but because I couldn't see a reason good enough to refuse.

I didn't leave the house after that. Kuroo came to visit me today. I didn't tell him about any of this.

I'm such a fuck up; a good for nothing piece of shit.

As I play video games and hear all about Kuroo's college life, the doorbell rings. In all my innocence, thinking we just ordered some food, I open the door.

I'm shocked to see my partner standing across from me. I can't face them, not yet. I close the door again and head back to my room.

"It was probably just a prankster." I lie to Kuroo.

Before he can continue talking it rings again. We stare at each other. "They'll stop eventually."

It rings again. "I'll go check." Kuroo gets up.

"There's no need. The less we give them the better."

"Maybe they left and this is already our food." Kuroo argues.

He leaves the room and soon Y/n walks in, holding their phone to my face as Kuroo sits on the floor, keeping his distance after realising what is about to happen.

"Mind explaining this? Ignoring my calls, texts and skipping school is one thing. Everyone needs breaks some times. But I figured you were just going through something and I left you for yourself, so you could fix your shit your way." They tell me.

I remain sill.

"If you really wanted me out of your life this much, it really didn't hurt to let me know."

It would hurt, because I'd be lying. I don't want you out of my life.

"You could've broken up with me and I'd move on with my life. But this?"

Their icy chuckle sends shivers all over my body. My guilt starts building up.

"This is fucking humiliation. Don't you ever pull anything like that ever, to anyone. Now, do I wait here for an explanation or should I take my leave already? You know what it means if I leave, right? You'll get what you wanted and I'll never be yours again."

Don't go. Please, don't leave me. I wanted to say. But I didn't, I had no right to make such request.

I calmly ask them to leave. And they do so, just as serenely.

I couldn't wait for the sound of my apartment door closing to be heard before I allowed myself to cry.

"Are you crazy? Why are you letting the best thing that ever happened to you leave?" Kuroo tries to reason.

I look at him with my teary eyes.
"Y/n deserves better."

"No. They deserve whatever they want. Y/n wanted you, they loved you." He pleads.

"What's done is done. I can't ask for forgiveness now. It won't be fair." I explain.

"I just hope one day you'll stop acting this way and truly appreciate what life gives you. Then, maybe you two can be together again."

I can't respond to this. I turn my attention back to the game, which I can barely see because the tears make everything blurry. This earns me a deep sigh from Kuroo, but at least he stops talking.

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