Fascism.

Chapter 7

Louis pov

I woke up and turned the best I could with Harry's arms around me. I looked up at his face. He was still sleeping letting out an occasional snore. I smiled to myself. My parents shouldn't be worried about me. I hope they're not. Harry's actually not a bad guy. He's protective snd sweet but he's also firm with me when I misbehave. That means he cares though right? He cares enough about me to punish me when I need it. I cuddled in further to his side and patiently waited for him to wake up. I wish I could kiss him. He's kissed my cheek and head before so why can't I just kiss him? I'm a weeny that's why. I'm afraid. Yes I'm afraid of him yet I say all those things about him. He's just so perfect sometimes. I can't help but feel these things for the gigantic man.

His eyes started to flutter. I smiled to myself and laid my head on his chest. "Good morning beautiful." He rasped. Damn his voice is sexy in the morning. "Morning daddy." I smiled. "How's my baby girl today?" He asked tightening his grip around my waist. "I'm great sir, how are you?" I replied. "I'm still pretty tired but I'm good." He said making me smile up at him.

I'm going to make him love me. I know it's a stupid goal and he'll probably never love me and just sell me to some douchbag. I don't want some douchbag though, I want him and only him. He's probably the best person I could have went to. He leaned down and kissed my hair. "What are you thinking about hmm?" He asked. "You." I answered. "Oh really? What about me?" He asked. I blushed. "I just didn't know I'd actually like being with you is all." I shrugged. "You like being here?" He asked. "Very much so yes." I answered. "I didn't think you'd ever like me." He admitted. "Why? You're perfect!" I exclaimed. "No, no I'm not. I'm far from it. I have anger issues and you know it." He sighed. "That's okay, we all have our imperfections. Yours are just small compared to mine is all." I whispered. "Louis nothing about me is small compared to you, especially when it comes to imperfections. In case you haven't noticed I'm pretty fucked up. I don't know anyone else that has as many problems as I do Lou. I don't know how you like being around me. I'm a monster." He laughed bitterly. "You're not a monster daddy. You're just insecure." I told him. "I'm far from insecure." He chuckled. "Doesn't seem like it." I mumbled. "Well, you probably don't need to be worrying about that anyway." He sighed. "But I care about you sir." I protested. "Don't. You'll only get yourself hurt." He warned. "I'll always care about you sir." I told him. "Just please don't try to love me, I'm alone for a reason Louis. The only reason you're here is because you're forced to be." He said making me pout. "But you need someone to love sir. I want to be that person. Please let me love you. Or at least learn to love you. It's always possible to love someone sir." I tried explaining. "Louis if you so called "learn to love me" all that's going to happen is I'm going to end up hurting you. I'm not a good guy Louis. I'm known to be worse than hitler and Stalin. Most people hate me for a reason Lou. Maybe all I'm doing here is trying to make sure that you don't hate me. I don't like people hating me, it just happens. I hope I never make you hate me, but by the end of this, if it ends, you'll probably hate me just as much or more than everyone else in this town." He sighed. "This is good. You're actually having a normal conversation with me." I spoke happily. "You call this normal?" He chuckled. "More normal than the other conversations we've had." I grinned. "Okay enough of this love and hate shit. Let's go shopping yeah?" He suggested making me grin widely. I haven't been out of this house in ages. "Yes please sir." I answered excitedly. "Go get ready then." He smiled softly.

At the mall

I held his hand as we walked through the stores. He got me some new shoes and skinny jeans with oversized sweaters. He practically spoiled me. "Thank you so much sir. Why'd you do it though?" I asked. "I'm not that cruel. I just got you clothes Louis. I'm not going to force you to stay with me without getting you necessities." He grinned making his dimples pop out. I giggled and poked his dimple. "You like my dimples huh?" He chuckled. "They're just so deep!" I exclaimed. He rolled his eyes and led me out of the mall. "I wish you would let me love you sir." I sighed. "Louis. Enough." He snapped. "Yes sir. I'm sorry." I whispered. "Look Lou, I'm sorry but I wouldn't wish that kind of pain on my worst enemy. I couldn't love you back. I don't know how to love Louis and loving someone when they don't love you back, well that hurts worse than any other pain out there." He explained. "Then try to love me too." I said softly. "Louis. You're just a poor boy that I bought. Give up." He told me making me want to cry. How can he be so mean yet so sweet. "Oh. So I'll never mean anything to you?" I asked my voice cracking. "No Louis. You'll never mean a single thing to me. Get used to it now please." He grumbled. "O-okay." I stuttered. "Don't fucking cry." He sighed deeply. "I'm sorry. I just, I just thought that maybe, we could be more than what we are now." I told him. "And if you loved me this pain would be 10 times worse." He said walking out of the mall dragging me behind him. The whole thing is, I think I already love him. And he was right. This hurts more than anything I've ever felt in the world.

A/N: kinda depressed now lol but Kylor (my crush bout to be bae) well he had a little sombrero and I told him it was too small for his head and he told me it was for chiko his chihuahua, he doesn't have a chihuahua so now I'm all kinds of confused lol I think that was his point in everything. Anywho he looked especially hot today like damn. His tattoos even somehow looked better. I didn't think that was possible. Goodnight and God bless. If yall don't believe in God I'm sorry but I do. 🙏👆🙌