Double person, double personality. /Hyunlix

i blame myself for all this.

(a/n omg lix with his new hair>>>>> i forgot how to breathe really)

1 year later

Felix made new friends in Australia he met Wooyoung's friends they were a lot, San, yunho, yeosang, mingi(and all ateez, i'm lazy to list them all)
He even make me met 7 other boy, wow it's like his popular.
The seven boys were, ni-ki, heesung, jake, sunoo, jungwon, jay and sunghoon.
and other 4 girls and other 7 boys.
I was like "weren't they few?"
4 girls they were...
giselle, winter, karina and ningning.
The other 7 boys were, yoongi, j-hope, taehyung, jimin, jin, jungkook and namjoon.
Now that i'm finished list his "few" friends, i'll tell what happens in this 1 year.
First of all, I heard my family and i was happy that they were ok, i really miss them.. i miss my mom hug and kiss, how she comfort me, her cook, her goodmorning, everything. I miss my sister Olivia, when we fight over little things, i miss her hug saying "I love you brother!", i miss play games with her, when i cuddle her when she's not in the mood, when she comfort me and i comfort her. I miss my dad too.. he's goodmorning and goodnight, when he is scary that I would hurt myself, when he give me comfort, and tell me that everything is ok..
i miss my family.
I miss my friends, yes i call them everyday, but, it's not like when we see each other gossipping and laughing.. now i don't even know how to laugh even if i have wooyoung's friend and him, yes i love them all but it isn't like my real friends not that they aren't but they're for now my friends.. when i have to go back in korea they will not.. and i'm scared. I miss jisung, i miss jeongin and seungmin, minho, changbin, chan and hyunjin, no gonna lie i didn't even try to forget him. I can't. I'm not able to forget him, and this is what hurt the most, he will probably have a family with woonyoung, a child.. a perfect life without me.. it hurts the most.
i stay in my bedroom crying over him.
I blame myself.. why I didn't accept him? Why? why did i complicate it? When i could accept him 10 months ago?
i blame myself for all this.
I miss korea.
In this 1 year i got hired to a job in a restaurant, just to have something to eat, and for pay bills, i don't think i'm gonna stay here for 2 years.. it's too long for me.

-hyunjin pov-
I woke up by the crying of my baby, Jeonha, she's a girl, and she has 1 year now. I live happily with Wonyoung, i didn't expect her to change that much, now i love her, and she loves me, now that we have a family, i learn to love her 6 months ago, and now i'm happy that i learnt to love her, she would never cheat on me, she promise.
I got off the bed, i didn't want to wake wonyoung, i went to jeonha.
"hey my baby, good morning" Hyunjin said in a soft voice.
Hyunjin took Jeonha and went to kitchen to make her milk.
(Guys Jeonha it's a name that i've invented, it's not a kpop idol or anything like that)
after made milk jeonha drank it in one minute. "wow you were really hugry" hyunjin said giggling.
"D-dada" jeonha said giggling
"OMG! J-jeonha can you repeat what you said?"  "d-dada" "aww my pretty girll" (why am i giggling too? too much cuteness for me👩‍🦯)
"wait for mama to know this"
"what i have to know?" Woonyoung said as she got down stairs
"Jeonha said Dada!" "Cool! Good job to my baby girl"  woonyoung said as she took jeonha to kiss her cheek.
"D-dada" jeonha said as she start crying
hyunjin took her from woonyoung.
"What happen baby? You want to go to park?" Jeonha giggled.
"Okok! Baby you want to come too?"
"no babe i have to clean the house"
"clean the house? You know we have the serve"  "yeah i know but i want to help them"  "oh ok! Bye see you later"
"bye" after hyunjin got outside.
"Ugh, this baby. It's took my hyunjin away." wonyoung said.
"I will call my other escort" wonyoung said giggling. "JIHYO!" wonyoung scream. Jihyo got downstairs immediately. "Yes your highness?"
"Make sure to clean the house! And hurry!"  "Yes your highness" jihyo said in a low voice. (i'm sorry for making wonyoung the bad person.. in reality i love her so don't worry)
Wonyoung called his escort( his name was ijio, casual name)
"babe can you come to my house i'm alone~~" 
"sure baby i'm coming~"
-20 minutes later-
ijio knocked at the door and wonyoung went to open it.
"Hi baby~~ i missed you" "hi love".
-after their "fun"-
"how can such a man, not consider this precious woman"
"I know right! He's such a bastard, i hate him, he is always with the baby never with me, i want the baby to disappear!" "I will be with you baby don't worry" "thank you my love" wonyoung said kissing ijio lip.

-Hyunjin pov-
i was going home, it started to rain i didn't want jeonha to get sick.
He knocked at the door, jihyo came to open the door.
"Thank you jihyo!" "no problrm you highness" she bowed. "How much times i have to tell you not to bow, if i have, i have to bow not you, your older than me, no offense" jihyo laughed "nono, you don't have to, as your wish i will never bow again"  "good, i don't like people bowing at me". "Jihyo one thing"
"yes your highness?" "one, don't call me your highness. Two you saw wonyoung?" "hahaha, she's in your room" "ok! Thank you" "no problem".
hyunjin got jeonha to bed, and went to his and wonyoung room.
"Hey bab-"
...

"what the fuck wonyoung!?"
"O-oh.. baby! it's not how it seem, i swear!"
"Ah not? And why am I seeing this!? It's my immagination!? TELL ME!"
"You go away." hyunjin said taking the man by his neck.
"Why wonyoung?" hyunjin said getting close to wonyoung
"I TOLD YOU WHY!?" hyunjin said slapping her cheek.
"why!? You are every time with that rat of a baby! You don't give me attencion! Ijio can! I wish i never had that baby with you!"
"AND THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU MARRY ME? WHY WONYOUNG? YOU CHEAT ON ME WHEN I FINALLY STARTED TO LOVE YOU?"
"YES! I DID IT! I DON'T CARE IF YOU STARTED TO LOVE ME! I WISH I NEVER HAD MARRY YOU!"
"ME TOO! NOW GO AWAY FROM MY HOUSE, AND GO LIVE WITH THAT 'IJIO' BOY"
"W-what?" "you heard me. Now go away. I don't want to see you ever again."
"b-but hyunjin.. what about the baby.. i'm his mother"
"you said you didn't want to have her, and plus everytime MY baby is on you, or you take her, she cry, so i think she don't like you."
"B-b- "no buts. Go away."
wonyoung start packing, and after that, she went to ijio house and live with him.
Hyunjin that nighy cried the hella out off him, questioning himself. Why I married her? why not someone else? Why i learnt to love her, i wish i never learnt.
i hate you wonyoung. I hate because i loved you.  I wish i never married you. Now that i think..
i am worried of how felix is doing.. i didn't heard him at all..
i forget about him.. such a bad person i am.
I blame myself because i didn't tell him that i love him.