ufff! it is a new day . this was the sunday morning , i just wake up from the bed soon i picked up my shaving kit and brushing kit . i was
missing in some loneliness in my mind ,haha haha mistakely i took shaving cream on my toothbrush , iam totally absent my presence in washroom
then i finished my morning fresh up
now my day starts i have to get ready for work , usually im always on time but today im late
My office is 5 km away from my living area
soon i reached my office , my seniors waiting for me
i have so many friends in social media and real life too
i started making friend in social media from 11th
class
i try to make some foreign friends and i made some reall friends .most of are wants friendship
most of wants money as i dont have money so i give friendship only . sometimes i get attached to some people , someone made me cry
30 January 23 , its 6:24 am my mood is in pulsating mood .
its new morning ,i felt memory of someone on my mind , there is one person whom i always thought of that person ,
soon i got attached to that person , in starting our vibes matched to each other
she is in her college she felt alone her vibes got match to me ,
it s 31 st January and we no longer talk to each other it is not because i dont to talk to her
i wanna talk to her but she is so busy or may be she is no longer interested in me .
sometimes it hurts sometimes not
its ok
im trying to move on
but ,,,,... cant
and i stopped sending first message to her
2 February 23
it is the time of discussing the idea
my mind is blank i havr to nothing to do after 20
there is a man,who always wish to be happy
07 February 23
finally i finish it off
she said me that i am irritating her
i dont know why she said like that
inner me dont have intentions to irritate her
i think she is longer required me
she is happy herself
13 feb now i understand she has time of uploading reels , but doesn't have time for me
😂how fool iam i thought she is busy
i think she is busy for me not for her .
😂 this think also hurts me
i becoming stronger day by day
now i understand never be friend of attention seeker girl ,
young me used to thought that women's are best creature god ever has made but i was wrong
i have inner experience of two women
i think women never be sorry for their mistakes
they thought they are always right
i dont know iam right or wrong
but what i do she told me irritate her i used to thought that i cared her
today i observe myself that i am not good at judging people
people always judge people by their thoughts
but most of my thought's arent real they just for the laugh of others
3 days has i badly miss her , as usual she didnt take care she didnt reply till the time
10 feb 23 we have come a long way
our feeling changes from real to virtual
we usually got happy when we get text messages
we have changed a lot our feeling got manipulated by one reel and post
i thought that something is permanent some people never changes but i was wrong ,i concluded that when open up so much to someone then they starting to judge you , most of the time , you are not so much appreciated like you got in initial days . as my advice we dont to have to open up to anyone keep your things to yourself only besides they are your happiness ,sadness, secrets .
after her ignorance i started many new things like
running 20 mins daily , start writing a story , listening musics .
still i haven't decided what i wrote in my story still thinking haha as the title of my story yet not decided
ok now start .........
i had a fight with her over the issue of not talking to me . actually she didt care about me she casually said koi nhi smjhta tujhe jana ho toh chla ja . actually these words kills me but i cant anything
sometimes we gave our full feelings to that person who doesnt care anymore
.
now i realise sometimes about being more understandable to someone ,hurts you badly
when you understandable to someone then they take you as granted ,they suppose that you are understandable to every situation .
its morning and iam thinking what should i do ?
she left me as she dont care .
6 march 2023
i noticed one thing 2013 is similar to 2023 , i think i am again living the same year
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