The Spirit POV

chapter 2 : can't spell perfection without R

Have you ever been stressing over small things that you have no control of ? Pushing yourself badly and only taking a rest when it affect your health badly .
Too far? R didnt think so .

R's sister lexi was a very talented girl as R's parents were always looking up for her and waiting for her to do something amazing and memorable, so it was safe to say R was living as his sister's shadow ; his parents saw her as a gifeted kids that deserved all the attention and love in the world.
And from the beginning of his life R never remembered a time in his life where his family pushed him to be on top, how could they when they only thought about his sister and how much potential she have, so R did the only reasonable thing to do ; he  decided to push  himself after years of being neglected and the silent kid .

It all started at the age of 9 , R had an exercise of math to do in class that was pretty much complicated ; he spent 10 minutes to find the solution and when he did he raised his head to find his teacher calling other students to write the solutions on the board , All of them were wrong , and when it was R's turn he bacame nervous .
Maybe it was the idea that he will get it wrong like everyone else that scared him or the fear to use his voice to explain the solution after , but it didn't matter because R got it right .
Not only that but he made an amazing explanation both writing and talking .
Getting him praised from all the class .

   This was how R discovered he wanted praise so bad and that's how he fell in love with the academic validation, somehow he get both excited and scared when exams were close and with time this became his talent .
Any topic wasn't easy for R but that what made it fun, he lived for the thrill of challenging himself , and for the next years that was all his life . Until he met Red.

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-Flashback at 12 year old R-
Tiffany : R darling you need to get out of that room a bit.
R: not now mom i am studying , this girl keep scoring higher then me at science.
Tiffany: but R i am worried about you , you need to do some other things like playing outside or going to hang out .
R: mom i really dont have time for that ...
Tiffany : THAT'S IT YOU ARE GOING OUT AND THAT'S FINAL I DON'T WANT MY KID TO BE A FUTURE 40 YEAR OLD LONER .
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R: damn she really kicked me out of my own house????
R was looking at his house then started to walk only to be met with the most angelic voice
Red : 🎶Pa-Pa-Payola isn't needed , hit hit tweet is archived! Everything we do will eventually have it purpose! I been living for some payola service 🎶
R: woah that was so good what song is that?
Red : thank you ,actually i wrote these lyrics the song isnt out yet
R: wait you wrote that?!!
Red : yeah i write sometimes
R: nice , i am R by the way
Red : i am red
R: nice to meet you red , do you live nearby?
Red : No i ran away from home
R: that's weird
Red : what?
R: you ran away from home but i got kicked temporarily by my mom because i didnt do anything beside studying
Red : my dad is mad because i am getting bad grades , i am sure he would celebrate having a son like you .
R: uhm red how about instead of running away we go to the library, i teach you some stuff and you make your dad happy . I really don't like staying outside like this.
Red : but dosent that defeat the entire point of your mom kicking you out ?
R: please how would she know plus i would just tell her i made a friend .
Red :ohh so we are friends cool.

*end of flashback *

"Promise nothing will hurt our friendship"
"I promise"
"I am sorry red "

But if R didn't reject Red he would betray himself and the promise they made , after all dating someone that you actually liked for years can be very dangerous and would stay in the way of friendship and the seek of perfection .

R went back to his house and directly ran to his room locking the door after him , the moment he set his head on the pillow tears formed in his eyes and the first time in his life since his dog died ; R cried.

R wished he told red the truth he wished he just forgot about his dream for a second and hugged Red ; kissed him ; confessed to him, but no R did the exact opposite rejected him friendzoned him and let him believe that he didnt like him back .
All R needed was an 30 minutes cry to feel better , yes his eyes were red and hurting him so bad it was hard to see and yes his throat was hurting him he was nearly able to speak and his head... his head was the worst ! He felt like it would explode at any second .

       But it didnt R had to get back to studying he need to be the best , he have to , and he was physically studying but his mind his mind was thinking about something else or should i say someone else .

To be continued!