Your red string

three aspirin and a sad feeling

The obnoxious beeping of my alarm clock jolts me out of my sleep. I'm not even awake for 5 seconds before my head pounds, it feels like my head is being crushed. I can't remember much of anything from last night and the urge to throw up is getting stronger by the second.

I roll over to my back and squeeze my eyes shut in an attempt to feel better.

It doesn't help.

I roll over on to my side, my eyes still screwed shut and pull my blanket over my head. A sudden overwhelming wave of nausea rolls over me, my eyes shoot open and the feeling gets worse. "Oh shit!" I whisper as I jump out of bed, running to the bathroom with my hand over my mouth. I make it to the toilet in time and vomit everything in my stomach into the toilet. I flush it and sit down on floor, leaning against the wall, with my eyes shut.

I feel disgusting, and exhausted. When I don't feel like i am about to fall over and die, I get up carefully and look at myself in the mirror. I look like shit.. My hair is a mess, my eye bags are a lot worse than normal, and I reek of sweat and vomit. 

I should take a shower. I spent most the time in the shower standing there, enjoying how the warm water feels and trying to remember what happened last night. I remember playing truth or dare, getting upset and trying to leave, but kaminari stopped me and we talked in the hall for a while. I also remember going back to the sleepover but I don't remember anything after that.

When I get out and change into clean clothes, I feel better. I still feel like shit but at least I don't feel disgusting. I dry my hair and decide I should take something for my headache and eat something.

I quietly exit my dorm and walk to the kitchen. When I get there, I find that no one is there, which is unusual. I do find a plate of pancakes and a note that says free pancakes :) so I make myself a plate and get a cup of juice before opening the cabinet and taking some aspirin. I sit down at the empty table and eat my pancakes.

I'm more than halfway done with my pancakes, when Kaminari walks in. His pace falters when he sees me but he continues to walk into the kitchen silently. Normally, he is very friendly and energetic, and wants to talk to me, but today he walked in without saying a word or even looking in my direction. 

This is weird.

"Hey man!" I say softly, with a small wave. He silently glances over at me before muttering a quietly hi. What is going on, this is not like him. An awkward silence fills the room as he fills a glass up with water.

"You should have a pancake, they're really good," I say quietly, hoping to make the situation a little less uncomfortable. At first, he doesn't respond but then says fine, and grabs a plate, before throwing a pancake on it. He sits down across the table from me.

"Soooo, how are you?" I ask gently, continuing to eat my pancakes.

"Not that good." He responds sharply, I look up at him, he's already looking at me.

"Whats wrong?" I ask softly, genuine concern fills my voice. He looks back down at his plate, pushing the bits of pancake around in the syrup and makes a frustrated noise.

"Sero broke up with me because of last night." He says quietly, his voice is full of anger and sadness. I can't tell if he is angry at me or Sero, unfortunately something in me tells me that it's not sero that his is upset with.

"Last night? What happened?" I ask. He looks back up at me, shock and heart break written all over his face.

We stare at each other silently for a moment, before he shakes his head, he looks like he is about to start crying. I think I did something wrong.

"Nothing, just never mind." He says, too quickly. He quickly finishes his pancakes, cleans up and almost runs away. 

My stomach begins to hurt again as I watch him leave.

I'm pretty sure I messed up, badly. Something happened last night, and it was bad enough to make Kaminari and Sero break up. And I have a feeling that it's my fault, and I have to figure out what happened.