Matthew Espinosa: Sad Imagine

Chapter 4

*20 mins later*

As I was sitting in the waiting room, Alexis and Anthony ran up to me,

"Y/n! What happened?! Is Matthew ok?!" They worried.

I buried my face in my hands and told them, "I don't know. They shoved me out of the room before I could see anything but, ummm, guys..... I... I think he's dead."

They paused for a moment. "How do you know?" Alexis asked.

"Before I left the room, that last thing I heard was a flatline on the monitor." I cried.

"Well they could revive him." Anthony said, trying to think positively.

I nodded in agreement and they both sat next to me. We sat in the waiting room, waiting for the doctor to tell me the results. After 10 mins, the doctor came in, my heart dropped as he told me,

"Um.. Ms. Y/n.... I'm sorry but.... He's... He's dead. He, umm... He died."

I shook my head, "no, no. He can't be. No, he can't leave me!" I cried.

"Y/n..." Alexis said, putting her hand on my shoulder.

I buried my face in my hands and put my back against the wall and slid down, sitting on the floor.

"It's gonna be ok, Y/n." Anthony said.

"No...." I cried, "The last thing he told me was... To let him go before it was too late, and he loved me.... I'll never let him go, he'll always be in my heart and memory."

Alexis started tearing up, "C'mon Y/n, don't be like that. There's other guys out there."

"But none of them are Matthew or anything LIKE Matthew!" I cried.

After a few minutes of trying to calm down, I finally got up, "Can i.... Can i see him? Please?" I asked the doctor.

He nodded his head and lead me to Matthew. It was terrifying. He was so pale, so... Lifeless, I felt completely empty. I slowly walked beside Matthew, hot tears running down my face, once again.

"I.... I'm so sorry, Matthew." I quietly said.

Alexis and Anthony walked in. I laid my head against Matthew's chest, no heartbeat. At that moment, It reminded me that I'll never see him again, or talk to him, or hug and kiss him, which made me cry even harder. Alexis started to cry as Anthony asked me,

"C'mon Y/n, do you wanna leave? Or... Do you need some time alone?"

"I don't know." I said as I stood up, "Guys, this is all my fault. I blame myself for this."

"What? No, it's not Y/n! Why would you think that?" Alexis said.

"I mean, think about it! If he didn't come visit ME, he'd still be alive!" I cried.

"Y/n, he WANTED to visit you. It's not your fault." Alexis said.

"Whatever, I..... Can I have some alone time? Just me, with Matt?" I asked.

They both nodded and left the room. I slowly looked at him, with eyes filled with pain and sorrow,
"I'm so sorry Matthew. I wish you didn't die like this. I wish you didn't die at all. I should've been there with you, so you didn't have to be on that plane....... Or maybe you shouldn't have came to visit me..."

I fell to my knees, crying the hardest i have ever cried, beside him, "Oh God, I'm so sorry!! I love you, Matt!! I'll never see you again, I'll miss you forever!" I cried. I slowly stood up, and laid next to him, hugging him.