Green Eyes (Loki fanfic- completed)

Part 16: You're not alone

I asked Loki if we could go for a walk, something relaxing, but I planned to ask him about Colby, I wanted to know exactly what happened that day. For a while we just strolled around, admiring the flowers, but it didn't last long when we came to a flower bed, below a balcony, that was completely squashed, like something had fallen on it, it was there that it happened "what happened to him?"

"Hm?" he hummed like he hadn't heard me, I knew he had and that he knew what I was talking about.

I stepped in front of him so that he would stop walking and look at me "what happened to Colby?"

He seemed frustrated as he glared at me "why do you want to know? Why do you care?" I suppose it was a valid question, why would I care about someone like him?

"I don't know, I just need to know! After everything I would like to know how he died" I was praying this wouldn't turn into another argument.

"There's your answer he died, end of" he went to walk away but I blocked him, frustrating him a little more. I crossed my arms and shook my head "look you don't want to know"

"If I didn't want to know I wouldn't be asking" I looked straight into his eyes, to try and tell him that I wasn't scared of his answer, by now I knew what he was capable of and even though I wasn't completely comfortable with it, I had learnt that I couldn't really stop it.

He was having a mental fight with himself, I could see it in his eyes and how he wouldn't look at me "I'm not going to tell you" I went to argue but he put his hand up to stop me "I'm going to show you, but you have to trust me, you may not like what you see" I nodded and he placed one finger from each hand on my temples.

A vision appeared inside my head, but it wasn't my memory, I was looking from someone else's perspective, I was standing at the balcony, the one above the squashed flowerbed, only it wasn't squashed anymore. I was looking at the rainbow bridge, I had this strange longing feeling. Then behind me came this distant chattering, I turned to look at who it was, there I saw Endre, Gustav and a few others laughing and talking, Colby was with them. He had a wide grin on his smug face and was shouting about something, I couldn't make out what until he came closer, the audio of this memory was slightly muffled "good riddance to her! You watch boys, it's going to be a lot better around here without that whore!" My body launched forward and my hand wrapped around his neck, it was then that I knew who's eyes I was looking through, my arm was wearing black leather and gold armour, I was Loki. There was a gold reflective surface in front of me and I could see the rage in Loki's face in it, malevolence danced in his eyes amongst the green. Ake came running from down the corridor and started grabbing at my arm, tugging at it but I... or Loki wasn't even moving, my eyes were fixed on Colby as his face turned blue. "My king stop! Killing him will gain you nothing!" There was this feeling like I had heard those words before but in another voice, then I was filled with more anger and shook Ake off of me, my other hand came up with a dagger in it and stabbed him in the side, everyone around me just stood and watched as the life drained out of Colby, then I walked to the balcony and lifted Colby high into the air then with little effort threw him over the side.

I opened my eyes, there was this look on his face, he looked sad "now you know why I didn't want you to see that" his hands went to leave my head but I only let one of them go, I took my right hand and laid it on top of his, flattening his palm on my cheek.

My eyes looked away from him "I could feel everything, there was so much rage... So much anger and pain, it was like it was suffocating me, suffocating you..." I looked into his eyes now as tears filled mine.

"It's not an excuse"

"No you're right it's not, but I understand now"

"It doesn't matter, you shouldn't have had to see that, I shouldn't have shown you, thats not me anymore, I don't know what happened that day" he took his hand from my cheek and looked down at both of his hands "do you think its possible to start again? Or is it a myth?"