Hating You, Loving You.

1. Moving to another city.

"You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you"

John Legend, All Of Me

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Two years before:-
(in present)

May, 2019

Bella's POV:-

This is my last day here. My last moment. I am going forever. I am not looking back now. There is no turning back. I have to do this. I have to do this for myself. I have to leave this place. I have to keep my emotions aside and start a new life. I have to move on. I can do this. Trust yourself. You can do this Bella.

"Bella!!!, What are you doing? Don't stand like an idiot and let your mother do everything. Go and help her." My father shouted at me, waking me up from my trail of thoughts.

"Sorry, Daddy," I said wiping and hiding my tears.

No, I am not weak. I am not crying because of my father. He is always like this. He never loved me. Nor did my mom. They wanted a boy and here I am and my two younger sisters. He thinks I am weak and always says such types of things that I am getting used to. According to him, I am an elder so I should behave with maturity.

I am crying because I am going to miss everyone here. I never really had many friends but I think I have 'the best' friends. I am going to miss My only best friend Daisy. She has been my friend since childhood. She knows my every secret. And now I am going to leave her. I will miss her. I can't call her to give me a farewell because I can't face her. I couldn't see her crying because I knew she would try her best to stop me and make me stay. But I knew that I couldn't stay. Nor will my parents will allow it. I have strict parents.

I let out a sigh and started walking towards my mom. She was already busy doing everything. I walked over and started packing helping my mom.

I had a look at my younger siblings. I have two younger sisters, Lily and Sky. They look so happy. They had visited my father's place before me as it was my second time visiting and moving there permanently. They couldn't stop telling me how beautiful the house was and our neighbours have adorable cats giving me a complete headache. I had a glance at my mom who was now tired. I started walking towards her.

"Mom, it's nearly done. You should go ahead and sit in the car. I will do the rest and lock the door." I told her.

"OK, be quick. We can't be late." Mom said.
I locked the door and started walking towards our car. I stopped to look at my house and surroundings for the last time. I don't think I will ever be back again.

"I am sorry, please forgive me. I can't do anything." I said sighing to no one in particular looking at the neighbouring before leaving and taking a sit beside my sister in our car.

During the whole drive, I was looking out of the car. I wondered why my life had to be so unfair. I tried to think of anything else. But... I can't get this out of my head. My friends, I miss them. My family never really supported me for my hobbies and interests. They want a child who can give them Good Scores in exams and Academics. I never truly got my freedom. They always had control over me. They didn't like it when I used to hang out with Daisy. They thought she was a bad influence on a girl like me. But I requested and convinced them.

Daisy. I mean just look at her. She is bold, Beautiful, Brave and Confident. She is a sporty girl. She is everything I am not. Everything I ever wanted to me. I sometimes can't help but wonder how we got along in the first place. I am shy, clumsy, calm and quiet. They call me Miss. Perfect. A straight-A student. A nerd. But Daisy is the opposite of me. She is the most energetic, aggressive and enthusiastic person I ever met in my life. She is carefree. She doesn't care about the world and her studies. She brings out the best in me. She understands me. She never left my side in any situation passed. She was always there for me.

I was the topper at my place, everyone's favourite. My teachers loved me for my singing, dancing, art, drawing and all. They all think I am an all-rounder, a perfect student, a perfect daughter, a very good friend and a perfect partner. But according to me, I am anything but perfect. But I do love it when people praise me, appreciate me and tell me that they are proud of me. I guess I am gonna miss everything.

"Mom!! We reached!!!" My sister announced as soon as we reached. She sounds happy unlike me. I got out of our car and started looking around. It was a beautiful place, calm, and quiet, just like how I always wanted, but it still wasn't enough to make me happy.

"Why are you upset? You should be happy right now." asked my mom with an annoyed expression.

"I miss everyone. " I said not meeting her gaze.

"Who? Your so-called friends?" She asked.

I just nodded in response too exhausted to let out a single word.

"You miss your friends? Seriously Bella? Are they even worth it? How can't you see that they were around you just because they could use you? Bella, the world around you is not as simple as it looks. People fake emotions for their benefit. So don't cry over them and go freshen up." She explained.

I wanted to say that they didn't use me. They were my friends and they had every right to ask me for help. And I was happy to help them. But I know the consequences of that. Either I will get scolded or beaten up for answering back with her. So I decided not to answer back as I was already exhausted from our journey. I just wanted to sleep now.

I think I should move on. I will try my best to make this less difficult for me. At least that's what I can do now. I will try.

Without having anything for lunch I went off to bed. Already too exhausted, I drifted off to sleep immediately as soon as I lay down on my pillow and closed my eyes.

I hope everything goes well.

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