JUNOONIAT

7. Denial and desperation🥀

AUTHOR POV
'I'm sorry baba I can't do it I really tried to convince myself but...' she sighs
'It's ok I never wanted to force yourself  but it's good that you atleast considered' he smiled placing a hand on her head and all the tension flew away

Damn I was so tense for no reason
Manal thought
She smiled and headed for her room
Her mood was very good and she didn't want to ruin it

She opened her laptop and clicked on the emails
Her eyes grew wide

'What the....' The only words that left her mouth
Eyes wide and mouth parted
She was shocked to the core
But was interrupted be a knock on the door

MANAL POV
'OH MY GOD' I yelled
'THEY ACCEPTED MEEEEEE!!!!' I screamed jumping in the bed

'Kia hua kon na' hamad bhai came running
'Bhai' i looked at him and ran to hug him tightly
'I got accepted to university of Birmingham' i said and he hugged me back tightly

his eyes grew wide before he can came near and kissed my head
'I always believed in you' he said and I raised an eyebrow
'Really?' I asked
'Yes really' he gave a sheepish grin

Knocking on my parents room I gave them the news aswell
Mama was beyond happy but baba was a hesitant
'You're going to go away from us?' He said in a little throaty voice
'Baba you're going to make me cry' i said hugging him tight
'I don't think I can let you go alone I don't have the heart to' be says looking at my with the doe eyes that I say to every time
'What do you mean' I looked at him confused
Alone? Who'll go with me?

'Maybe you can take a gap year and take samiya along with you next year?' He asked
A gap year? I'll miss one year of my life and I'm pretty sure will not be able to complete my masters in time
'Is there any other option?' I bit my lower lip hoping for something easier and quicker
He thought for a minute and a smile etched his face
'There is actually, get nikkah fied' the moment the words left his lips my eyes grew wide
'Nikkah?' I asked not sure if I heard but got my confirmation as he nodded
'To....?' I asked
Baba raised his eyebrows gave me a guilty little smile
The horror on my face must have been visible when he started to look worried

'It's your choice I know how much you wanted to go abroad.I'm sorry I cannot let a piece of my heart go so far away so alone' he replied and I realized I either kill my dreams and stay or kill my heart and leave
Tired I sighed and left the room after saying goodnight

I thought about it all night and slept and woke up and though more
So much that I missed breakfast
It was afternoon and I was in my room still thinking, trying to find a way to help my situation
'Ughhhh' I yelled
*Knock*
'Manal ajaon?' Mahd asked before entering
'Your baba talked to me' he said looking a little guilty
'I'll try to talk to him, you don't need to do nikkah with me. I'll ask chachu for you don't worry about it' he said and turned around ready to leave
'Why mahad?' I asked
Shocking myself by asking this
'What?' He turned around an eyebrow raised
'Why? This was your chance' I repeated

'I like you manal, a lot.but I don't want to enforce anything on you.mai chahta hoon ke tum mujhe chaho.I realized what I lost when started feeling alone.You,my love, felt like home' he replied with a small smile looking right in my eyes that I knew he wasn't lying

I nodded and he took that as his cue to left
Gulping the lump in my throat I decided to let nature take its course.not really nature cause I made the decision but whatever

I went to baba and said yes for the nikkah
He was so happy that I think this was the first time I've seen him this happy
He embraced me and kissed my forehead
Whereas my mom was happy aswell but reacted way differently
She started crying and praying that I always be happy
I smiled at their reactions and left the room

Going in the direction of Mehrul's room to give her the new before she gets fussy about hearing it from elsewhere
I knocked and entered
Sameer bhai was laying in bed and mehral was next to him with her head on his chest
His hand in her hair and her eyes on her two twin sons
This is what I want
The life
The destiny
The luck

And this is what I'm afraid of getting
What if I mess it up
We all know how hard it was for mehrul and she's the strong one
'Hey' she greeted me and I replied
'So.....I have news' I told her with a small smile
'Ohhh gossip' she replied and giggled causing sameer bhai to kiss her head while using his phone
Looking at them in awe I continued talking
'Anyways so I'm getting married' i said biting my lip
'Ohk that-WHAT' she sat up in shock
Her eyes as wide as saucers
'Married?' She asked unsure of what I said
I nodded meekly

Sameer bhai sat up and looked at me
His eyebrow raised in confusion
'To whom?' He asked
I turned my eyes away from them and looked at Huzayl and hazil
'No way...huh... my brother?' She whispered and I nodded a little when I was suddenly pulled into a gut crushing hug with mehrul over

'OHMYGOD OHMYGOD' she yelled while hugging me tightly before Sameer bhai pulled her off of me
'Come on Jana you'll strangle her to death' he said pulling her off
'Oh shush it's a happy occasion let me express my feeling' she shooed him away and he chuckled a little giving me a sorry look
Nobody can win against his wife

After talking with Mehrul and explaining my situation I left the room and entered my room
As soon as I close d the door someone door
Mahd
'Can I come in' he asked and I nodded
With a huge grin on his face and flower bouquet as big me in his hand
'Thank you' he whispered and gave me the flower
I took the flower and placed it on the bed
He took my hand in his and my heart beat quickened
'Happy baat pakki,jana' he said and placed a little kiss on my hand

'Don't be fooled Mahd, you know why I'm doing it.I haven't forgotten and will never do' I said looking at him in the eye
Dead serious
'I know love.but at least now I know you aren't going away from me. I grovel for life if I have to' he said to me with his lips tipped and doe green eyes

With a squeeze on my hand he left it and left the room
With a flustered face and fast heart beat I entered the washroom
I looked at myself in the mirror and shocked to see the red hue covering my face
Focus manal,you have a goal you don't need another distraction. Get nikkah fied and leave the country to chase your dream
I reminded myself

HELLOOOOOO!!!guess who's back and will leave after finishing this story
Hopefully me😭😭
Anyways sorry for the delay
Opened Wattpad one day and saw someone's message to continue this bcs they really liked
I rmr how I hated it when someone left the book with ending it so here it is
Will keep this short
By guys!!!
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