the ruined girl

| chapter 8 |

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As I was on the  rooftop , I was sitting on the edge looking outside. It was just me and no one else. I took out a cigarette and lit it. I don't usually smoke as I'm not into it but I felt like I needed it. I was in the  mood for it although it disgusted me. I felt the door open and It sent shivers through my spine. I didn't like the idea that I was alone on the rooftop and that anyone could come, but I also realized that it is a public nightclub and other people do come up here...

I turned around slightly to see Pedri in the corner of my eye. Why is he up here ? Did he see I was gone and went searching for me or did he just come here for the exact same  reason as I. I guess I will never know..

"Why are you sitting on the edge?" Pedri asks me as he walks closer towards me.
"It's peaceful and enjoyable.." I reply as I inhale another puff of my cigarette.
"Come down and sit here it's better" He points at two beach beds on the rooftop.
I tapped my cigar off  the roof and threw it on the floor while i stud on it. I pulled my dress down a  bit and headed over to Pedri. He was looking at me a lot and I don't think he realized. He was looking so good himself. The temptation was keeping me away from him but I couldn't handle it. I know what type of boy he was but that still didn't keep me away either.

I sat down on the beach bed next to him as we were sitting directly in front of eachother. "You look good"  pedri says looking on every piece of my body. "You don't look that bad yourself" I replied to him. "So why are you up here?" He asks me. "Because I'm bored, why are you here?". "For the exact same reasons" he replies looking around.

We were talking for a while until he brought  up "Naked truths". He was telling me one of his own and said it was my go. I told him an old story that was rightly wrong. We were  both laughing until I said "Your turn". He seemed turned on, and his grip became tighter on his leg. I could see him tensing it.
"I would kiss you right here right now" he said looking at me. He put his hand on my thigh and became closer, and he put his mouth up to my ear."what do you say?" he asks sending shivers down my spine and butterflies in my stomach. I froze but I knew what I wanted. I put my hand around his neck tightly and the other on his chin as I pulled him in towards me. His tongue slowly entering me and  one thing led to another. We were making out for what felt like forever. Eventually he was on top of me , and his hand went slowly down my dress along my thighs until this stopped when the door opened. It was a drunk couple coming up on the rooftop, but luckily they did not see us.

Slowly Pedri got off  me and held his  hand out to help me up. We walked back down together but said a word to no one. And by the looks of it it's not like the others would of noticed. Alejandro and Gavi were in a group with three girls and Serena was one of them .

I stand at the bar to order myself a cocktail as I was craving one badly.
"Do you want to go back to the house ?" A voice behind me asks. I turn around to see Pedri. I nod my head and follow him outside of the nightclub. We walk together passing the sounds of the sea and looking out into the beautiful sky. We talked about a few different things, although it was a bit awkard after what just happened we didn't mention it or the awkardness. "So are you a one night stand type of person or relationship and commitment type of person" he asks. "I'm not into one night stands i think it's ridiculous" I reply back. "Oh that's too bad" he says looking down at the ground

Did he really just said Oh too bad???
Did he seriously think I was just going to have a one night stand with him if that's what he was planning right now. Not in a million chances. Although he had some control over me that was making me rethink my choices I knew I couldn't as that would make me 10x more obsessed with him.

"So all you do is one night stands?" I ask him
"Yeah basically" he laughs. "So your just a fuckboy?" I look at his eyes. His eyes make me fall in love with him and I would be willing to play along with his one night stand theory but I wouldn't want to get myself hurt.

"I'm not a fuckboy, I just fascinate my own needs. I'm too busy for a relationship." he points out almost mad at me. "Too busy? All you do is play football and go out. If anything it seems like you don't have the effort to put in for a relationship and you are a fuckboy" i snap at him as I walk into the house.

I layed down on the bed in my room, it was only 2:05am, realistically the others were not going to be back for a while. I got up from my bed to go get a drink. I was in a oversized t-shirt and comfortable pj pants. I was trying to reach for a cup until i felt a cold veiny hand reach a cup above my head right behind me. I felt his body touching mine. I turned around. My face being inches away from his, as he hands me the cup and stays in the position. Both hands on either side of the counter with me in the middle. We remained in eye contact for the whole time until he brought his hand to my thigh and the other behind my lower back as he pulled me in for a kiss. The whole roof situation reaching me again. We were about to replay it all again. I kissed him back, his tongue slowly entering mine. And one thing led to another. He picked me up and my legs straddling him as he carry's me to his room. He layed me down as he went on top of me. Kissing me in every way and one thing led to another.

I was lying in bed with Pedri , his head on my chest as we cuddled. He was sleeping and I was staring at him, Until one thing hit my head, I just became one of his one night stands. I knew I fucked up again. But I couldn't stop myself. I liked him too much and something about him attached me to him.

I got up and slowly put my clothes back on. Until Pedri sat up on the bed waking up as he heard me leaving. "leaving already" he asks. "i cant stay here and you know that what if the others come. happy i became one of your one night stands" i said scoffing not believing what i did. It was ruining my brain even though it wasn't that bad.

He stayed silent. He watched me leave and said no more after that when he heard what I said to him. Yes I regret it but it was the truth..

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