Ruthless Game (Haylor)

Chapter 7

I wanted to cry but my weary eye didn't produce tears. Is it so wrong to be with him? I'm so sick and tired of playing this torture card. It's literally killing me and I can't defend myself because I'm far too weak. I get up from my bed and went to the sink to get some water.

"Hey, someone left a note on the doorstep, must be for you" my mum said.

I take the little envelope upstairs, it's from him. I remind myself that if I read his damn letter, it won't change anything so I put it aside and try to get some sleep. I've been stressing out to much for this past few days and it's so unlike me. I can't even recognize my own reflection because I've changed a lot, not in a good way and the worst part of it all wasn't losing him, it was losing me.

Harry's POV
I feel so bad for myself, I didn't even get to say a proper goodbye because I'm a stupid fucking selfish monster. I always mess things up, one way or another I'll toss and turn it till I'm out of luck. I know it gets hard sometimes but I'm trying my best not to commit the same mistakes this time.

I throw my keys on my bed and run my fingers to my hair. I'll try to clean my mess and make something up for her. I grab a pen and a blank sheets of paper, if I can't talk to her I'll do it this way.

I slid the letter inside and went to their house. This time, I end up walking and I just don't care. I need to deliver this message for her to know everything. I know it's a little too much for her to take in but if she ever reads this I know she'll understand. What if she don't? My subconscious shouted. I'll explain it to her when I get home, anyway I'm still flying back here because I'm not ready to exit this place but for now I think something is waiting for me in New York and I'm gonna get there whatever it takes.

I slightly knock on the door hoping she'll open it for me but she never did. I know she's there but how can I show up when I'm the one who's causing her all this pain. I hope she'll give me another chance..

I lose hope and I just left it on the doorstep, since I can't give it to her in person. For fucks sake, I'm really sorry for my best friend. I don't know how to undo everything but I need her to know that I'm sincere and I truly thank her for understanding. I might take my course with Aless in another country but I will never forget her. She's the most toughest girl I know and I'll keep her in touch.

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I squint my eyes and attempt to close my blinds. I felt sick today maybe because there are many complications that I can hardly take. He's gone and if he dares to come back I'm gonna strangle him. I hope things were just so much easier for me turns out, it didn't have to be.

"C'mon, Tay eat something" my mum commanded.

"No, I'm good" I spoke.

"You really think I'm gonna believe you, what's going on?" she asks.

"Mum--" I cut.

"No, Taylor! Seriously, tell me!" she yelled, I was force to look at her.

"What's happening?" she whispered.

"Harry left" I said flatly.

"What? Why?" I really hate this side of my mum that investigate private things.

"He'll moved to New York today with his girlfriend" I said, searching for something freezy on the fridge.

"Oh, I'm so sorry" my mum uttered.

"No you're not, I was expecting way too much and I know I shouldn't. I end up disappointing myself" I confess, it feels so great to be able to share your feelings to someone but at the same time, really annoying.

"If you wanted him for yourself, tell him before it's too late. Anyway, I should go. I'm gonna be late for work. I love you, take care of yourself" my mum said, embracing me.

I end up hitting the roads after mum left, staying there wasn't really a great idea. So I'll just take a walk to this endless road.

"Taylor!" someone called.

"Hii" I said timidly, it was Jace.

"Where you going?" he questioned.

"I'm, I was just. I don't know really" I spoke nonchalantly.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, never been better" I said sighing.

"Must be tough, anyway I'll be going to watch a movie. If you'd care to join me?" he said. Jace is a nice guy but he's not really my type. He's too good.

"Um, yeah. Sure" I replied.

"Great"

We went to the theater to watch a movie, I'm not really familiar of the title but the flow was really good. It was really scary and I end up covering my eyes the entire time. Jace on the other hand was actually enjoying the movie and I'm like a kid who's hiding behind the popcorn bowl. Finally it was over and now I could breath properly. I was so frightened and I tried to pretend that I'm not.

"So, where to?" he spoke, hands are on his pockets.

"I'll probably just chill, I don't wanna go home" I stated.

"Ed just called, he's inviting me to this huge party, do you wanna go?" he asks.

"Um, okay yeah" I responded.

Yeah, look what you've done Harry. I'm trying to get you out of my head. I'm distracting my whole thought to stop from thinking about you.

Authors Note:
Hii, so this chapter is kinda boring, yeah.
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