All The Things I've Never Said Before - Part 6

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And she was lost

She didn't know what she felt anymore

She was both happy and sad all at the same time.

She would never tell anyone how she felt

She wanted to stay quiet and keep it for herself.

She had already lost so much

And gained so little

She would never feel good enough

For anyone.

Not even herself.

She would laugh

And she would smile

And she would act like everything was fine.

But she knew

She was living a lie

Behind that pretty smile

She had held a broken heart.

She would forgive over and over

Just because she was afraid to lose

Someone who never saw her real worth.

She had expected too much

And never learned to let go.

She got attached too fast

And when the time came

A part of her vanished too.

All those countless promises

In which she believed

Flew away

Like the wind to the leaves.

She waited for him

But he never came.

All she ever wanted

Was to never feel again.

Because every time she felt

All she feels is pain