"lost in fear" {Star wars Rebels fanfic} (Ezra Bridger)

Chapter 5: "the fallen apprentice"

"They just keep coming!!!" Sabine yelled.

"Just keep them busy!!!" Hera yelled above her in tbe cockpit. Chopper beeped and hera laughed. "A-HAH! ENTERING HYPERSPACE!"

She jumped and immediately relaxed only to go into mother hen mode.

"Get Luminara and ezra to the common room!" Hera ordered into the com link as she ran to her room to grab more medical supplies.

Zeb and kanan quickly went to work on removing the unconscious bodies to the common room floor. Kanan carefully set ezra down gently as to be careful of not to re-open the stitches.

As zeb was putting Luminara down she woke again and seemed delirious but not as much as before. Kanan quickly took her hand and spoke to her as he knelt inbetween the two laying down.

"Im here master Luminara." Kanan spoke gently and reached out through the force aswel.

"Barris... the jedi... all gone... all..." Luminara slurred.

"I know... i know... just hang in there..."

"Kanan, he's he's bleeding from the inside." Sabine said alarmed and showed him the X-ray that showed it. kanan turned to ezra with the rest of them.

"We have to re-open the wound and stitch him up from the inside. Zeb, get the surgery kit." Hera ordered.

"Wont he just beep out?" Sabine asked.

"Possibly. So we have to be quick. Kanan, keep him calm while we do this. The stuff we have to numb it and keep him unconscious are low and might not be strong enough." Hera stated as she organized the tools for the surgery.

"Oh wonderful..." kanan muttered. This wasn't going to go well.

Surprisingly it went well. Hera went slower then intended and ezra did lose a lot more blood but overall was ok by the end of the day. Zeb volunteered to watch over him in the common room as they set up 2 foldable cots for the 2. Kanan decided to do the same and held Luminaras hand as he stayed awake most of the night.

During that time he noticed how much older she looked compared to his memory. And how much the empire mistreated her. Her skin was a sickly pale instead of her healthy green, her eyes were more grey then blue, and her face was sunken in to highlight her skulls features.

In a way, Luminaras mere presence reminded him of his master Depla and her master, Windu. Memories that seem to be a lifetime ago flooded his brain. What once were happy memories were now sorrowful and it showed on his face as hid brain wondered to them. He remembered the times Depla entertained him and the clones during hard stress times by floating them in the air. How they laughed during those times and how much it made her laugh when he suddenly lifted her into the air from behind for the first time. He remembered how Mace Windu would nick and pry about how he stood and gave him life tips whenever he needed it or didn't... they both were such good beacons of light for him... and he lost them...

He let himself hope... even for a second.... that Luminara would replace that lost light for him in that way. Hera and the others were his light yes, but this was different. Luminara was part of his origins. Part of his old home. The temple was his house and the people in it were his family. And he lost both... he hoped he could atleast regain some sort of dust from their ruins... something that could guide him in trying times again like Depla, Yoda, and Windu did for him. But he knew not to rise to much hope.... he just couldn't help it....