Who Wants To Be A Hero Anyway (Villian Izuku AU)

Am I a Monster?

I knocked on the Bakugou residence door. Waiting impatiently for the door to swing open. It was Mitsuki, Kaachan's mom, who opened it. She has never liked me. Her scornful glare right now evidence of that fact. 

"What are you doing here?" she spat down at me. 

"I-I-I" she makes me so nervous. I could not get my words out. 

"Spit it out already!" she yelled. Then I saw Kaachan coming down the hallway. "Old hag! Who is at the door!?" he screamed out. Kaachan is a bit aggressive, but he has a good heart and is kind in his own way. 

Kaachan pushed past his mother and his eyes softened, even if just barely, when he saw me standing there on the verge of tears. 

"Zu? What are you doing here?" I was ready to collapse. Words failed me once again as I wilted under Mitsuki's livid gaze. He glared at his mother as he pulled me past her towards his room. 

"Don't worry about her Zu. Now what brings you over here, you don't normally come to my house." he asked as soon as the door shut behind us. 

I kept my hands busy and was constantly conscious of where I placed my hands. I didn't want to accidently touch Kaachan. 

He watched me fidget for a minute before he attempted to grab my hands. I jerked away hysterically; my eyes widened in fear. 

"Izuku, what is it? What happened?" he looked worried now, trying to get me to speak. 

I finally calmed my breathing down, keeping my hands tucked safely away from his reach. 

"Kaachan I got- I don't know- How could this- I am a monster!" I tripped over my words that were barely intelligible. 

He placed a hand on my shoulder, watching me uncertainly when I flinched at his touch. 

"Zu, you have to calm down. You are not a monster, why would you even think that?" 

"K-kaachan! I g-got my qu-quirk!" I forced out loudly. His eyes were wide with shock and then he grinned. 

"That's great! Why aren't you more excited, this is a good thing!" he exclaimed excitedly. I shook my head slowly. 

"No. no. It's m-made me a-a monster!" I am afraid to tell him what my quirk is, what it does. Afraid to tell him what I have done. He will hate me. He will have the same look everyone did before. He will know then that I really am just a monster. 

"That's not true! And now we can do what we always planned to do, become heroes together! We will both apply to UA when the time comes, we will both get into the hero course. Then when we graduate-" 

"NO!" I yelled cutting off his excited rambling, he looked at me startled. 

"Kaachan. I can't be a hero. I will never become a hero." I whispered despairingly. Kaachan was left confounded by my whispered reply. 

"This quirk- My quirk- It's not even a quirk. It's a curse! It kills people! I killed someone!" I broke down. Tears fell down my face like a river and sobs wracked my body. "Kaachan, I killed somebody!" I blubbered. 

He sat there, his face pale. He was speechless. I wilted in my seat, unsure of what was going through his mind. Just waiting for his rejection. 

Several minutes went by in silence, neither of us sure what to say or do. Finally, Kaachan shifted in his seat and cleared his throat. 

"Did you want to?" he asked in a whisper. 

I looked at him in exasperation. What kind of question is that?

"Of course not. I didn't even know what was happening until it happened!" I cried out, a little disappointed that Kaachan would think I wanted to do something so evil. 

"Then you are not a monster, you dumb head! It wasn't your fault! And you can be a hero, don't let anyone tell you otherwise!" I was dumbfounded as Kaachan continued scolding me for thinking so low of myself. 

"B-but Kaachan. What am I s-supposed to do?" 

"About what?" he asked, playing dumb. He knew exactly what I was referring to. 

"Listen Zu, tell your parents. They will be overjoyed; I know they have been worried about you. But things will be better now!" I listened to his words carefully and believed them. I really did believe them.

His words played over through my mind as I walked home, the evening sky twinkling above me. 

Everything will be alright. I have a quirk now, granted I am not sure how it works or how to control it. But having a quirk is better than having no quirk at all, right? 

Everything will be fine, Kaachan says so. If I believe and trust anyone's words, it would be his.