"Let's break up."
Napatigil siya sa ginagawa niya. It's pass 4:30 in the afternoon at wala nang masyadong tao sa school dahil nagsi-uwian na ang lahat. Only athletes or those who have projects to finish are the only ones left in school in this hour.
"Bakit?"
"Hindi ko na kaya"
"Let's talk about it. Maybe I can help you. Just not this time please?"
"Hindi ko na talaga kaya Ryuu. It hurts here and here" I pointed on my heart then later on, on my head. "Wasak na ako Ryuu. I'm empty, I'm a mess, I have nothing to give. Kahit sa sarili ko wala na akong mabigay"
He held my hand, like the way he held my heart.
"I'll help you okay? Ikwento mo muna lahat ng nararamdaman mo ngayon. Magulo lang ang isip mo kaya ka nakakaisip ng ganyan."
"I've made my decision Ryuu. I've been thinking about this for the past few weeks. Buo na ang decision ko and I hope that you'll agree with me."
"No Solaine. We can still talk about this"
That day he didn't agree with me but when tomorrow came, he finally gave up, as my decision was standing firmly strong.
It hurt. It hurt so much to come up to that situation. Yun lang ang naisip ko na kaya kong bitawan sa panahon na iyon. Even I can't almost save myself.
Maybe if I calmed down, would I still be with him? If I talked honestly to him, would our relationship be stronger as it was before?
Maybe if I listened to him, I won't feel this sense of longing?
If only I had listened to him.
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