The moment I saw you, my eyes began to dilate.
Each time I passed by, that face became mesmerized.
A conclusion came into mind that I wanted to get to know you.
Watching from afar, I had somewhat hoped that you would notice me.
That beautiful smile; oh, how I wished I could be the reason.
Not only did you appear in my thoughts, you appeared in my dreams as well.
My mind became filled with thoughts of "what if's".
Constantly putting myself down, I thought It would never happen.
As a shy person myself, I could not picture it.
It felt as if I was trying to grasp onto something that was out of reach.
All the scenarios I created in my head, they became something I was hoping would happen.
And each time it didn't happen, it caused a feeling of disappointment.
What I was waiting for was initiation.
And after that initiation, maybe it could have grown into something more.
This head of mine became filled with mixed emotions; negativity had overflowed.
"I'm probably not good enough for you",
"You'll probably get bored of me easily",
or "I'm too ugly".
There were times I wished that I could just switch my mind off.
Please, let me snap out of this phase I am in.
Nothing I could do would stop me from having all these thoughts.
As much I wanted to avoid you, I felt the urge to find you.
I need to see that face at least once to make me feel satisfied.
This is only infatuation; why am I making such a big deal about it?
Not once have I conversed with you, nor do I know a thing about you.
You probably don't even know that I exist.
The image of you has been implanted in me; it simply can't be erased...
All I can do is wait.
This is part of what being a human being is -- to have emotions and to experience.
