The way it meant to be [Phineas x Isabella fanfiction]

Part One: The kiss

Not five minutes after I got out of bed, I'm bursting with memories of my previous dream, where Perry was a secret agent, we fought our way through several dimensions, saved the world from a mad scientist and in the end Isabella kissed me. No. It wasn't a dream. It was reality coming back to me, which shouldn't be there because our memories were wiped after that day. They had to be erased. Then why do I remember and am I the only one who remembers? What about Isabella, Candance, Ferb, Baljeet, do they all remember this?

I woke Ferb, who sleepily wiped his eyes and answered my question with a small nod. A short answer, as I expected from him, but this just makes me more frustrated because it just proved the fact that everyone remembers everything, which means that Isabella remembers kissing me too. She kissed... me. Why did she kiss me at all? I didn't know she felt that way about me, or should I have? Why does my heart beat faster when I think about her? Do I... feel anything? I think it's the kiss, it's definitely the kiss that makes me blush, because that would make anyone blush, yet... Isabella's kiss didn't just make me feel surprised because... I miss her and I want her to do it again. I mean, I've never been kissed by anyone before, I've been kissed on the cheek by my mum and my grandmothers, but that's completely different. Isabella kissed me on the lips, not the cheek, and that's what makes me feel weird.
What do I even feel right now? I wouldn't describe it as a bad feeling, as I can only think of her, and looking back over the past few months she has tried to get close to me many times, but none of them led to a kiss until our cross-dimensional world-saving with Ferb. However, the kiss was not supposed to be born as a memory, it was supposed to be in both of our minds as something that never happened, but the opposite happened. Did she want neither of us to remember it? Why? What would happen if Perry's bosses found out that we remembered that day? I don't want that to happen. I need to find Isabella and ask her why she kissed me. Is it even appropriate for me to ask? I'd feel awkward asking her, but I also don't want to disappoint her or make her think I'm avoiding her because she kissed me. I've always thought she was cute, but I never thought Isabella had feelings for me. Not until this point of my life.

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I go downstairs and Candance already looks at me with a strange look. When I sit down at the table to eat she whispers something into my right ear.

"Do you... remember too?" – Her voice is quite loud for it to be a whisper but I think no one else hears it beside me and Candance, I slowly nod, to make it obvious and quick. - Where is Perry?

That's right. Perry is a secret agent, I can't forget about that too. I remember getting really mad when I found out about it, but as stupid as it sounds right now that doesn't really concern me at all. I eat the two hot-dogs mom prepared and go to our front-yard. I see no signs of Isabella yet, which seems about right since it's early in the morning, usually around this time I try to figure out what to do with Ferb today, as she walks by as soon as we get to the middle of building our idea, but not today. Today, I don't really want to build anything. Instead of doing that I start walking towards Isabella's house. It's been a while since I visited her, I believe the last time was around when she had a sore throat and was ill because of it.
I knock on the door, but nobody answers, so I'm thinking about knocking again, but I hear a strange noise. Someone is crying? I walk to the backyard, over the fence and I saw Isabella sitting on a small concrete staircase crying as she pushes her face into her palm hands.
Because of this, she must've not notice me walk next to her.

- Isabella? – I turn to her as she looks up at me with tears in her eyes, this alone feels like an oxymoron despite her usually cherish personality, in fact I don't recall seeing her crying at all in my life.
- Phineas? – She stutters before asking another question. - Why are you here?
- I... Remember.
- You do? Oh, I am so sorry! I don't know what I was thinking and... and...
- It's okay Isabella, it's okay! – I start to wave with my hand. - I am not mad.
- You... are not? – Her tears got replaced by a tiny but noticeable blush.
- I am just... suprised. I mean... I did not know you had a thing for me until you kissed me – I start to feel weird for a sec, I really said the word "kissed" out loud, towards Isabella. -  I mean... now the signs you sometimes sent towards me are now obvious to me to come to this conclusion but I had no idea...
- Really? How? What should I have done differently Phineas?
- I am not saying you should've done anything differently, I am just saying that I am... not really good with this kind of stuff. Love, I mean.
- Do you... love me too? That's why you're here?
- I don't know... You are cute but I never thought about you that way, It's not like I have thought about that feeling at all in my life, but I always saw you as a friend.
- So... your answer is "No" then?
- No, that's not what I meant, I am just...
- You love me as a friend but not in a romantic way?
- Isabella I...
- Why... are you so... stupid about this stuff and why can't you see that I love you...
- I think I love you too...
- Think? Because I kissed you? You love me because I was your first kiss? Is that it?
- No, I always loved you... I mean I felt this feeling hidden inside probably and you brought it up with kissing me, but I don't think a kiss would be enough for us to be a couple... but that doesn't mean I can't try...

Isabella blushes as she looks into my eyes, whiping the mixture of tears made out of sadness and anger as she hugs me. I hug her too. I hugged her multiple times but this hug is different, it feels better than anything I had, I would say right now it feels even better than the kiss. I might've not seen the signs before, but this time I willing to be an open minded figure and ask out Isabella atleast for a date, even though I do not know how to create a dating scenery, I know that this should be the first step before I jump to the conclusion of admiting my love to her, because I can't admit something I don't feel right now. I never knew about the feeling of love before, I don't recall feeling it then or right now, since I am not really a romantic guy, Isabella wants me to be one, and I can't help but try my best to not cause any more struggle to her. She tried it hard enough already, so It's my turn now.

- Isabella?
- Yes?
- Do you want to... hangout sometime? No, I want to go on a date with you I mean... – Isabella blushes as she stops the hug, her hands shaking not beliving I just asked her this question which causing me to blush too.
- I... I would be happy to go on a date with you Phineas! - She smiles, and this is the first time I see her smile and think "She's cute" immediately after that.