𝓢𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓐𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓗𝓮𝓻 (𝓤𝓻𝓫𝓪𝓷 𝓕𝓲𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 ❣︎)

Breakdown

Breakdown

    I have not heard from Jacque, D, nor RL in weeks. I have spoken to my parents about the situation and me and my parents were on the phone for two hours just talking. I was really sad and I still am. Loni took huge advantage of me and I didn't even get the chance to clear it up. Jacque has blocked me from everything so I have no access to her. RL and I still have each other on social media but I don't know if he blocked my number. August and Jay spoke to me the day after the fight though.

    I've been in my house just in bed. I haven't been out like that for real, afraid I may run into Loni. I have been seeing my therapist and she encourages me to speak to Jacque and RL, but I'm scared. I don't want to ruin anything else with them and it's probably for the best we aren't seeing each other right? I mean who knows when Loni will show up and ruin my life for good and I finally get back with Jacque? Or if RL has another idea to get me to see another girl? I don't know. I wouldn't even know what to do to have Jacque back in my life!

    My apartment started to smell real bad so I had to clean it up. I took all the trash out, washed the dishes, did my laundry, mopped my floors, sprayed my apartment with air freshener and cleaned my room. The place looked a bit better from what it was. I'm losing my mind over here! I can't just go without talking to them! I need to see D! I have to make this right! I'm tired of hiding! I want my friends and my girl back! I can't just sit up here and give up knowing the truth when I have proof! I can't!

    I put some clothes on, grabbed my keys and made my way to D's house. Lord, I just hope she's home! Please let her be home. I arrived at her place and rang her doorbell. Please answer, D. Please?

"Craig..." she said,

"Hey..."

"Come in,"

"Thank you," I said, walking it.

"I haven't spoken to you in weeks. Are you okay?"she asked.

"Uh, no. No! I'm not. Uhm, I came to make things right with you,"

"You have to make things right with Jacque and RL, first,"

"I'm getting around to that. But I need your help, D. This is serious. I only told my parents. I can't keep hiding it from you all," I said, pacing back and forth.

"Craig what's wrong?"

"I...I...Fuck, man!"

"Craig, what is it?"

    I blew air in frustration and titled my head back. I had to do it before it's too late. I took the paper from out of my pocket and slowly gave it to her.

"What's this?"she asked, opening it.

"Just read it..."

    She opened the paper and within a few seconds her eyes got wider.

"Craig! Oh my God!"she said, sitting on the couch. "Oh my goodness! She did this, shit? What the fuck! Craig, I am so sorry,"

    I flopped on the couch and cried on her shoulders. I don't think I cried this hard since I was little. I couldn't bare the pain anymore. I had to let it out. She took me in and rocked me back and forth. She held me tight.

"I was trying to tell her! I was trying!" I cried. "But she wasn't trying to listen to me!"

"I'm so sorry..."

"I went to her house to make things right and she tried to come onto me and I pushed her away! I was about to walk out the door but she stuck me with a needle! I instantly became weak...she took me to her room and I couldn't do anything! I had to lay there and take it! I was so helpless! I felt so dirty! She handcuffed me and did it again the next day! I was going to say something...but I didn't know how! She then let me go and I went to the hospital afterwards,"