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Double Trouble

@yennie_luv This one is for you, and thank you for giving me ideas. 

I knew he didn't love me. I could always see it in his eyes. The little light in his that shone just for me in the beginning of our relationship had faded. Now they shone just for her. I never saw that light in his eyes.  Oh how I wish I could see those eyes one last time.

Who had taken his heart from me? Well, none other than my very own beloved twin sister. I don't hate her for that, because, well, she's my sister. How could I hate her? Maybe it was me? Wasn't I good enough? Was I not that exciting? Was I not pretty enough for him? 

"I'm breaking up with you." Nijiro told me on our very last date. 

"W-what? I-how- wh-." I couldn't speak then. I knew it was coming, but it still hurt. " Is it because of her?" I asked him.

"Who are you referring to?" He asked me, as if he didn't know who I was talking about.

"My sister. Is it because of her?" "... yes."

I knew it. How could he not love her? She was everything I wasn't. She was smart, pretty, successful. How could I compete with her? 

Love. Such a funny word. Everyone always talks about how great love is, how it's the most wonderful feeling on earth. 

Love.

Love.

Love isn't a nice feeling. Love hurts. It hurts so bad. I feel like I'm drowning. Is this what love is? Is this what the heart feels? And it hurt so much more when my sister told me he asked her out on a date. Is this love, then? All this pain and sorrow? All the nights I spent crying in bed? All of this is love right?

"Ugh how could he do that to you?? That's such a jerk move. Y'know what? Let me at him, I'll beat him into a pulp for ya sis!" Did I ever mention that my sister was like the best person on earth. She helped me get over him. She was there for me when Nijiro left me in the dirt. "No it's fine, honestly."

"Can you believe the nerve of that guy? To ask me out after he dumped you? Such a dickwad." She was also a terrible liar. I knew she liked him back, so I let her. I let her be with him. And I don't regret a thing.

I started focusing on myself more, and actually got over Nijiro. After a while it didn't hurt to see him happy with my twin. I felt as if a massive weight had been lifted from my shoulders. And as timed passed, I grew to become a well respected film director. I was proud of myself. All I had done because of that little break up. I didn't feel love for him anymore.

Or so I thought.

"We're engaged!!" My twin said happily. I was honestly happy for her. A few years had passed and the two are closer together. As the day came by closer for the wedding, my sister asked me to be her maid of honor. How could I decline? 

It was a beautiful ceremony. As she was walking down the aisle, I started tearing up a little. My little sister was getting married (yes I'm older, only by like 2 minutes BUT STILL).  I couldn't have been more happier for her.

Ooh this might be one of my favorite stories.

My dear love,

There's really nothing left for me to do. You made your decision clear, and I'll respect your wishes. You chose my twin sister. And I hate you for that. I hate you but I love you, you know what I mean? I can't stand you anymore. And as for my sister, you can go after her, but if you hurt her, I...

You may have swept her off her feet with your sickeningly sweet love letters, but you're not going to convince me that you won't go back on your word.

Nijiro. What did I ever do? Or what did I not do? Was I not good enough? Why my twin sister? I did everything for you. I did what I thought would make you happy. Was that wrong of me?

I know you won't ever read this, but I want to know Nijiro, did you ever even love me? Or was I just a part of your plan to get close to my sister? At first I thought you genuinely loved me, but as I could later tell, you are an amazing actor. I don't even know if what we had was love, or just another script for you? Was any of this love? All the dates you took me on, all the times you saw me at my worst, all of the good times we had together. Was that nothing to you? 

It was something to me. I thought I had hit the jackpot with you. I had never had anyone genuinely like me. I was never asked out, no one ever loved me. All my life I thought there was something wrong with me. In high school I stopped believing in love after I was asked out as a joke. I gave up on the idea of love. But with you, I thought love may have been real. But I see now that love doesn't exist. 

Or maybe it's just me. I'm unloveable aren't I? Only a joke to you? 

I loved you.

Well my tears are all over this letter now. Goodbye Nijiro, I hope you're happier with your choices.

So, my beloved Nijiro, are you happy now? 

WOOOO. ANOTHER ONE. anyways I loved the letter part. So cute, kinda. Anyways valentine's is around the corner and my guy best friend doesn't like me in that way. WILL I EVER BE LOVED??? Anyways hope you enjoyed and if you didn't that's too bad. Take care my lovelies.

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