He stroll through the cold airy woods, breath's heavy as smoke escape his dull freezing lips. No thoughts occured towards his aching brain but the sentence that never in his life he'll asked to himself is the only thing that kept screaming
I want to be him
He wants to be Streber, he wants that he doesn't worry about his life. That he's not lonely and he wants to be happy, Happy enough to be dragged around, get excited over new places and adventures. Every ground he step foot on is nothing but a challenge. A challenge to his life and his reoccurring thoughts
Kevin gritted his teeth and grab some strands of his hair. He wanted to yell, why does he wanted to that?
Is it because of a mental illness? Is it something he didn't want to do? Is it the frustrations he's in now?
...
Why is he frustrated? Why is he asking himself this kind of questions??
He knows that he overthinks a lot but this isn't the things he overthinks. Usually, it's about his job and finance to keep his store going or even what the costumer's going to order or how satisfied they can be
Not this, not about emotions
"..."
What did Streber do to him?
He just met that guy and now he did something confusing that's making Kevin so jumble, he feels like a part of him is missing and he's suffering to find that last piece of his puzzle to make his living complete
And everything in life will be perfect as the way he dreamed of
"Kevin!!"
He glanced at the figure, that intoxicating voice makes his whole body so fucking numb to the point that he wants to fall through a pile of leaves and drown under it. Be crushed on as his bones pops and his brain explodes
He wants to hear him...he wants to be 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 Streber
Streber sprinted towards Kevin, holding the bag of candies tightly but not enough power to torn the paper bag. He's glad that he saw the candy guy walking to the path he guessed
He needs to apologise and explain everything to him
...
Well not everything though
"Kevin! Oh thank goodness I chose the right way-"
"..."
"..."
The sound of the wind occupied the silence they emit, as the chilly atmosphere avoided the two. Streber's silent. He doesn't know what to do, Kevin's...hugging him...?
His embrace is so warm, warm enough to melt Streber. His heart quicken and eyes started to become blurry and Kevin's hair and body is entirely clear for him to see. The new guy stood there, baffled on what to do, he thought if he's dreaming or not but this is cozy to be a fantasy
Kevin ended up to his neck and breath out, making Streber tolerate on how the other is dangerously close to his ear. His now red ear
What the hell is he doing
"uhm, hey uh K-Kevin. I think I can't breath"
That's not true, he's breathing perfectly. Streber just wanted to escape this sweet moment because if Kevin stayed longer. He doesn't know what he'll do to Kevin next
He might accidentally kiss him, holding him close to his arms and never ever let go
In response, Kevin tighten their embrace. Streber panicked. Is the candy guy that touch starved? He hopes that he's the only person that Kevin hugged due to how comfortable this is
"Kevin-"
"Streber"
𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘵 𝘶𝘱 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦
The candy guy's still not letting go, in Kevin's point of view. He doesn't want to leave this. He wants to devour Streber right on that spot, to lock him on this position and bash his needy icy lips towards the other partner to make any fire between those eyes
And he snapped
Kevin let go immediately after thinking about that, now self conscious on what he have done. Redness started to creepily show and he sweated
"I-I-I'm sorry! I didn't know what came over me! I-It's probably on how cold it was"
𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘪𝘥𝘪𝘰𝘵?!
Kevin backed away at Streber who's processing the cold that returned, he felt abandoned by the rapid movement that the other made
He miss that warm feeling
Streber glanced at Kevin who's feeling flustered, he thinks that it's cute to see him like this. The new guy chuckled and it made Kevin more humiliated
"I-It was getting a bit cold after I ran up to you so...thanks for that..?"
Kevin came to his senses, humbled at his own actions. He doesn't know what to even say or even what to reason, his words apparently do not exist anymore in this world full of shame. He wanted to run but he knows that it's wrong to do that, he always escape the brink of his death but why he can't now?
He swallowed his dry throat and eyes stares at Streber who's avoiding his gaze, they can't speak nor even try to. They have been trying to be a better friend for the other but look what they had gotten to
It's a disaster
Kevin bitten his under lip and rubbed his arms, it was getting chilly and their cold atmosphere isn't even helping to warm that up
"...thank you, for that uh..candies.."
"...n-no problem.."
Kevin immediately answered, he didn't anticipated to answer that quickly. Maybe it was the awkward silence that they are now emitting to each other and Kevin do not like that, it is nice for Streber to speak and he wanted to hear him but in this scene they are in...it is weird to even muster a breath
Kevin sighed and scratched the back of his neck
"..I-I should get going..it's getting dark now..."
"oh, sure. Uhm, see you next time..?"
Kevin looked at him, Streber waited a reply with a cheeky smile. Brushing off whatever agitated situation Kevin's in right now
"yeah, see you next time"
Will there even be a next time again?
Stay hydrated and alive!
-me (im_depressed_help)
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