If Only Mom Could See Us Now. (Tony x Collin) [DISCONTINUED ]

chapter eleven

Larry pov:

I look at the short British man in front of me. Gripping tight to my back. "Woah there man. What did I do?" The male whipped his tears and smiled.

"You gave me hope, Larry."

I grinned, I wish I had confidence like his. So broken down but determined of whatever it was. But everyone here was kind of scary. If they learn about my addiction.. then I might just get kicked out. Who knows?

He finally let go and ran to his room. It was so weird of how people acted here. Especially the butterfly. Always talking about his father, it's like he had an obsession over him. He weirded me out. he also sounded like a girl.

Shrignold's pov:

I saw Tony hug Larry and then go to his room. Malcolm said for me to let him die. But.. I'm not so sure If that's what I want.. I also never really knew why it was bad for people to like people... But it must be wrong since Malcolm has said it.

Collin's Pov:

I saw Tony run into the room with a big smile on his face and his eyes red. "Are you on drugs? What's going on with ya?" Tony's smile slow curved into a frown, making my head tilt to the side in confusion. Tony coughed and petals with blood still stained his hand. So at least that was normal..

Tony walked up to me and sat down next to me. "I need to know you opinion on me. Full out honesty." I was even more confused by this, definitely on drugs. "Uh.. I think your a nice friend and uh.. your mustache is nice, I guess?" Tony nodded. "Thanks." He then walked out. This was definitely going to be an interesting day. And it only nine in the morning..

I stood up just kind of felt.. uncomfortable. Tony was acting strange around me and it's not a secret. I think everyone in the house has noticed by now. But... It weird. It's like my heart bloomed like a rose when I saw his smile it's just so comforting.

Then it hit me.
Blooming, flowers, petals.

Tony was in love with me.

I didn't want to believe it but it was so obvious.. so fucking obvious. I only noticed it now too!!

I was in denial.. but I couldn't love him back even if I tried, romance just didn't exist to me. Ever since I was little, my mom put me in a dress and always said that I could 'impress the boys' but.. I never wanted that. But Tony was just different.. his smiled, the way he laughs, his sternness, his eyes..

He was just beautiful.

But the other thing was is.. what was my mother going to say? I haven't seen her in years and the day she finds out who I am.. I'm fucked. She would ask so many questions.. like 'why would you cut your hair, [REDACTED]? It was always so beautiful. Why is your chest flat,  [REDACTED]? Do you have a boyfriend yet,  [REDACTED]?' and the worst question of all.

"Why did you do it  [REDACTED]? Why did you change your name and stop talking to me? Are you scared of rejection? Your still the little girl that I birthed, you will never be different. No matter how hard you try."

I felt tears run down my face. I was overthinking again wasn't I? I stood up to go see where Tony was, but I couldn't find him. "Tony? Where are you?" No answer. I checked in the other rooms and eventually found him in the bathroom puking petals stained in blood. "Tony?" He looked up at me, with a helpless look. I knew he wanted to get better.

I sighed. It's for the best of us. I took a deep breath in and confronted him. "I know your in love with me." His eyes widened and blood rushed to his face, making him reder than I've ever seen him before. Tony wiped his mouth, staring up at me.

"Do you feel the same Collin?" I wanted to make him happy, but what exactly was love if you didn't love back..? I looked away, feeling ashamed of myself. I didn't want to tell him.

"No. I- I don't." I could see the broken expression be placed on his face.

"Your lying.."

I shook my head. "I'm so sorry Tony." Small tears started to swell in his eyes, he looked to hurt. "Get out."

"What?"

"I said get the fuck out." I left and closed the door behind me. But the only thing that rung in my head was that I made a mistake.. a bad one. But the damage was already made.
It can't be fixed even if I had tried.

I didn't feel satisfied. I just felt numb, I broke his heart. I broke his damn heart because I thought it was a good idea to confront him. Stupid.. stupid.. stupid..

I sat one the steps as I heard the faint cry's of Tony. It wasn't supposed to happen like this..  was it..?