If Only Mom Could See Us Now. (Tony x Collin) [DISCONTINUED ]

Chapter five

"Who told him about the outside?!" Yelled Paige as they opened the door and ran out. My eyes then widened. "I might have.. I just.. he was curious and told him to warn him!! Not tell him about a place he could run away to!!!" Paige sighed. "Tony. You have to realize what danger this is causeing, teachers cannot keep running away. You do know what happened last time correct?" I didn't want to reminded. It hurt to deeply.

"Yes Paige but nobody really liked him anyways!! This is different I--"

"What is different about this Tony?! What difference is it going to make if you keep running away from your own mistakes and grief?!"

I stopped. "I am not running away from my own grief!!! Do you see me running?!"

Paige couldn't take it anymore with my apparently immature behavior. "YOUR RUNNING AWAY FROM YOUR OWN MOTHER'S DEATH!! YOUR STILL JUST THAT LITTLE BOY WOULD WITNESSED HIS OWN MOTHER'S SUICIDE AND FUCKING KILLED HIMSELF. TALK ABOUT RUNNING AWAY? THINK ABOUT YOURSELF TONY!!"

I remember that moment like yesterday. Her body slowly swaying from the ceiling fan. A rope wrapped tightly around her neck. The fan turned on at the lowest setting, her neck turning a grayish purple from the loss of circulation. Hot tears running down my small face, I knew she was dead. I couldn't speak, no matter how hard I tried nothing erupted from my vocal chords.
I remember when my father came home and saw it himself he beat my senselessly, blaming me for her death. I regret alot of things in life, but thing I regretted most in my last moments is the fact that I came home from school that day. In the last week I was alive, I did not talk, I could hardly hold eye contact with anybody any longer. But I hopped with everything in me that I wouldn't suffer the same fate as my mother. I wished I didn't lie to myself so much. The sensation of that rope around my neck burning my neck is where I felt happiest in life.

I stepped back.

"Paige.. I'm so sorry.. I never realized that--"
Paige cut me off once again. "Save it. If you care about Collin so much, look for him. But I'm not helping. If you want to be smart,  just know he'll die anyways. So good luck for looking for a body." I hated how ignorant Paige could be. It physically hurts my body everytime she opened her stink-filled mouth.

So I set off, without Paige, without anyone. I will be alone. "Collin!!!" I yelled out his name with of course, no answer. I looked around the forest, nothing much. Mostly trees and rocks/gravel with additional moss. I could see just fine as well, it was never really dark, mostly a cloudy, dim light that reflected itself on the ground. It never really rained either, it was just damp, like a towel after your done drying your hair. Never wet but never dry either.

A twig then snapped. It wasn't very loud, but loud enough. I turn around to face Collin. "Collin!! Your..! Your okay!"

No answer.

Collin looked half death and exhausted. "Collin..?" I put my hand on his cheek to check his temperature, before he collapsed. "Collin?! Are you okay?!" I yelled hopping he was okay. Still no answer. I picked him up and examined him, he looked broken.

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"So your telling me, you found Collin right behind you and he collapsed? I'm not really buying it Tony, there's a 2% chance of that even happening." Shrig said while taking a sip of his Apple juice. I shook my head. "You gotta believe me shrig!!" He rolled his eyes. "Fine, but you have to find a girlfriend sometime soon or I swear Malcom won't be happy." Shrignold huffed in a playful type way.

"Fine.. I'll fulfill your weird cult wish.." shrignold just frowned. "Take him upstairs to rest, and tell Manny and Robin not to bother him." Shrig said while taking another sip. I nodded. "Thank you again shrig." I started to walk away but I looked back. "Seriously shrig, I don't know how to thank you more." Shrignold gave me a warm smile. "No problem Tony."