Chanelle is a girl from the ghetto, but as luck would have it her grandmother soon sends for her to come to the states. Once there Chanelle goes through a roller coaster of love,abuse, sex and criminality. Follow her on her journey to find better (...
As I'm standing here with my mom, my brother and my two sisters from my dads side who are also migrating today I feel conflicted, Shawnie and I had a great conversation I asked him to take my virginity but he wouldn't. He told me he loves me too much to make me do something that he knows I'm not ready for, he said he wanted me to go to America because it's a better opportunity and he wants me to keep my head on my body make something of myself and if in the future I still want him he'll be here waiting for me. I cried because I didn't want to leave him but I listened. I'm listening but that doesn't mean I'm gonna be happy and smiley, my sisters and my brother are all smiling and giddy while I'm straight faced tears stained on my face, I hugged my mom because even though she upsets me I love her and will miss her because she's all I knew for 14 years of my life . As we all stand outside the airport waiting on my Aunty patsy my mom sneaks an off guard picture of me.
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She walks over to me pulling me into a hug" everything that I have ever done is to protect you, I don't want you to be another baby madda, or another young girl wid no future enuh mi baby, yuh way too pretty and smart fi dat" . " mi nuh wah yuh leave neither especially fi go to deh wukliss man deh Weh nuh mind unuh but dis a d best ting fi yuh mi gyal, mi nuh care Weh dem do or seh mi wah yuh wul up yuh head and work hard so my struggle wid unuh nuh go in vain". " ok mommy" I replied hugging her back crying harder than I was before, I knew my mother had been through a lot because she had an absent mother and a deceased father but I just wish she talked to us more instead of beating but honestly I get it, I've always gotten it I just didn't like it. My Aunty came and led us inside the airport after we said our last goodbyes, she took us to the counter taking all our documents giving it to the lady at the counter she got everything back and got the tickets. She then led us to the security checkpoint where we had to take our shoes off, once we passed through we went right into another line where we showed the passports and boarding passes and went into the plane. Once seated my sister who was the same age as me oddly enough sat beside me and started staring at me making us both burst out in a fit of laughter. " everything she do funny ya man" I thought. Chania was just six months younger than I was, and my other sister Chaniece was two months younger than my brother "boy wukliss cutlass did a drop hood actively" my subconscious says making me laugh out to myself. "Den farrin nuh fit d man daughter dem" Chania says "den how farrin nuffi fit wi rite deso" I replied making us all laugh out, I felt a little better after Shawnie and my mothers pep talk but I'm still not all the way happy but I know my plans and I have to be focused to get through these next four years until I turn eighteen.
