Follow Your Heart

YOU NEVER KNEW

This chapter may contain mention of abuse , and rape. It may contain bashing Porschay but that's just a part.

Prapai was welcomed with open arms. Everyone were happy for Kinn Porsche except two. One was our cute boy Venice and the other was Porchay, 

' When hia adopted Prapai , he gave all his attention to him. He didn't even glance at me.', he thought. He knew it was a lie but still he didn't want to share his hia with anyone. He even hated Kinn for spending more time with his hia. He didn't say about his deeds he made to Porsche. He knew when time comes he has to say everything but he can't. 

All were having their lunch while Porsche was feeding Prapai and Kinn was feeding Porsche. They looked happy in their little world. But no happiness can lead without problems. Big came in handling a brown cover to Porsche. It was an letter regarding Porschay's absence in college entrance exam. Everyone can see Porsche eyes turning red reading the content. He handed Prapai to the nanny and said her to take Prapai and Venice out of the room. He also ordered Big to close the doors. 

' What happened Porsche?', Korn asked.

Porsche just started to walk towards Porchay and Porchay knew what was going to happen. 

' Hia , let me explain. I know it was wrong. Hia I ....I'

Loud thud echoed in the room. All their butts were off the seat except for Korn's. All knew Porsche loved Porchay more than anything in this world. Seeing Porchay response and Porsche slap , they knew Porchay is in a deep shit. Porsche was the most patient one when it comes to family and he would go to any extent for them. 

' Why? JUST WHY? Did I do something wrong? Did I raise you wrong? Did I pressure you to do something you didn't want to or did I stop you ? What was the reason you didn't attend the college exam? Why? I was the one who dropped you right. Then you could have said something. If you didn't want to appear for the exam you could have said. My dream was just to see you live a good life. And you lied to me telling that you did well in your exam. Why Chay?', Porsche sound resonated in the room.

'Hia...', Porchay cried.

Porsche was waiting for a reply. 'Open your mouth Chay. What is that you need? A month ago I was informed you were almost caught for illegal entry in a bar. And if wasn't for Kim you would have been arrested. And the biggest joke is you went to party with your friends and you had you exams the next week. And I thought it was stress that made you try things out. But again not even a week ago  was informed you skipped your final exam and my friend was the one who pushed you back to the exam by pulling few strings. What happened to you Chay? You were never like this.'

' It was hard , Hia', Porchay said in a quiet tone.

' Hard you say. All I wanted you to do was to study Chay. Did I ever ask you to do other things than to study? Chay if you didn't like to study then why didn't you appear for the entrance exam. It was music chay. Of all I remember Music was your everything. With least pass grades you could have entered college just with your Music. Why Chay ? WHY?'

' You never knew Hia. You don't know anything about me. You were never home. You went out, earned few bucks , enjoyed with friends and came back to sleep. You never took care of me. All you did was giving me some pocket money and then spending few days with me. When loan shanks came for uncle you would appear out of nowhere and pay some amount to them. Other than those I can't remember anything about you Hia. Why would you care? You were enjoying your life and out of nowhere you became a bodyguard. You and your boss fell in love with each other. Got married and now you live a rich life. How can you know my suffering?' Porchay shouted. Again a loud thud was heard and this time the one who slapped was not Porsche but Tankhun. It was not just Tankhun who was angry but it was the whole room including the bodyguards. Porsche stood there numb processing what his brother. He had tears in his eyes and that was first. No one has ever seen Porsche cry even Kinn. Even in death bed Porsche smiled, during Kinn's betrayal he smiled, even in the darked point he just smiled hiding his pain. But now seeing tears in his eyes was a shock to everyone. Big who considered Porsche as his little brother just wanted to kill Chay. Kinn who knew Porsche loved Porchay more than anything just wanted to hide his love from this demonic world. 

Jom and Tem who were present there to have lunch was astounded by the events happing in front of them. They also took part if taking care of Chay. They knew the sacrifices that their friend made just for Chay to have a good life.

' Shut up Chay. Don't assume things.', Tankhun shouted.

' Who is assuming? What do you know about me? When I wanted to join a private school , he didn't even considered it. My uncle was right when he said my brother would never spend money on me. How would he have when he spent all his saving just to party with his friends? Some good soul out there gave me scholarship to study in a private school. When he enjoyed his life and came back home just fighting in streets for fun I had to clean his cuts. He would come home after eating good foods and I had to live my life depending on noodles , rice and curry. When he drives bike I have to depend on bus. He started to drive when he was fifteen then why can't I? He goes to bar from the age of twelve and when I went there one day how does it become illegal and wrong?' Porchay shouted.

Jom couldn't take it anymore. He stood silent just because he knew if he scolds Chay then Porsche would be angry. But hearing nonsense assumptions from Chay's mouth, he couldn't stand ideally. 

' What do you know chay? What do you know about Porsche?   Do you know about the sacrifices he made for you?', Jom started.

' Jom leave it.', Porsche said.

' No Porsche. You be quiet. This little stupid creature over here doesn't know anything and makes assumptions like and idiot. You said he went to bar at the age of twelve, why did he go?, do you know why he dropped college?, do you have any idea how many sleepless nights he had?, do you know how many issues and situations he had to face? He was a kid too chay. He is just few years older than you. He worked hard to put food on the table, he never brought things for himself, where ever we went he prioritized you. He didn't pay his exam fees just to buy you a guitar. Do you know how hard he worked to make money to pay his fees? But you little piece of shit had to demand him a guitar just before the last pay date. When he gets his pay first thing he does is to separate the money. One for your uncle debt, one for your future, one for your needs, one for house , and there his nothing for him. He takes double shifts just to for you to have a worry free future. You said all you ate was curry and rice right. Have you ever asked your brother if he had his food? You said he comes home after silly fights right?  Do you know gatechass? It is a under ground fighting competition. You get money if you win. And steer is no guarantee for your life. He risks his life for you ungrateful idiots. You boast as if your uncle is a good human. That person is the most cruel being in earth. He made a ten year old do odd jobs. He made Porsche get all the beating for his mistake. He....', Jom stopped speaking as tears flowed.

Porsche was standing with the support of Kinn. He looked like he was about to pass out. 

' He ..' Korn asked Jom to continue.

'HE RAPED HIM. he raped him. He assaulted him with his friends. Porsche....he made him lose himself.' , Jom cried. The room was dead silent. This was something they never expected to hear. 

Porsche was going in and out of consciousness. It was like he was seeing a memory. 

' Porsche come out of it. Baby come out of it. You can do it. That's all past. You are with me now love. Porsche...PORSCHE', kinn shouted. 

' Big call the doctor', Kinn said as he carried Porsche to room. Tankhun , Vegas and Pete followed him. Kim started at Chay who was guilty and in sobbing mess.

'I am sorry. I didn't mean it. Chay is sorry', he cried. 

' Chay it's okay. Just talk to your brother', Kim said.

' He might hate me now. I misunderstood him. I should have been there when he was down. I was so selfish phi'