Only you || 𝙷𝚊𝚗 𝚓𝚒𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚐 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 ༄

15✸

We drove to the location and walked over to his door.
„I suppose disguises won't work so let's get straight to the point"
„This is gonna be fun"
Chan broke open the door and we ran inside, the gun pointed straight in our view.
We found him munching on chips on his couch, casual clothes and a let down hairstyle.
„long time no see bastard"
He looked hella confused and scared.who can blame him?
„Aaah,surprise. You can't hide from us,neither can you from this bullet"
We both shot him at the same time without small talk or hesitation.
I didn't want y/n to know about this at all,we had to be cautious.
„Good job my man" Chan smiled and patted me on the back.
„You too. Call one of the cleaners please, I'll go check up on y/n"
„Why can't I check up on them? It's like they're all yours"
„Just do it"
I left the house and typed in their contact.
„Sup sungie"
„Sup.is everything alright over there?"
„Yes actually, i mean I did almost burn your house by baking cookies this morning but apart from that... bbama doesn't miss u anymore,sorry not sorry"
„Whaaat I'm hurt! Also you did what?"
„Chill man, I said almostttt"
„Just you wait till I'm back"
„Speaking of which, when will that be?"
„Probably in a few days actually, don't let me find a mess"
„Sheet- gotta clean the whole house then"
„You wh-"
They ended the call mid sentence...
Chan came out shortly after and we drove back to the hotel.
I left the room to go for a walk and plugged in my earphones. Suddenly that one song started playing. With or without you by u2. I felt pulled back to the night y/n and I spend at that park...how the winds blew their bangs in their face,how our knees touched from time to time.
They saw me as nothing more than a new friend,an exchange student from another country,and even now they still didn't know who I was... but how could I possible tell them.. 'hey I'm actually your childhood lover who abandoned you for yearsˋ
My heart just can't let them know...
I stared at the black sky filled with stars as the music played in the background.
Would they forgive me? Fuck,did they look adorable on my lap.
I wished I could kiss them all day,hold their hands and cuddle with them till we fall asleep,but I couldn't. At least not until I've told them the whole truth.that's the least I could do for them.
My mind wandered through different memories with them, how their genuine smile brightened me every time.
The next song started playing.
The scientist- Coldplay .
The song that played the night we danced in their backyard.nothing mattered except for each other in that very moment.
That was also the night their boyfriend broke up with them, but they seemed to forget about all that pain in the moment I held their waist and dragged them around the flower ground.
A small tear formed inside of my eye.
"I wish I could tell you..."

Y/n pov

I finished playing with bbama, the small grin on my face still noticeable.
"He must be really serious about his place, I mean, what did he think I would do,really? It's not like I ripped open the pillows and threw out the plates" I said to the puppy,cupping his cheeks.
I got up and went outside, to his balcony.
"The breeze feels so nice... I can't wait for summer"
I sat on one of the chairs and looked up at the stars.
I searched for zodiac signs in the sky when suddenly a shooting star passed my eyes.
My eyes widened and I quickly thought of a wish.
I wish for him to be honest with me
After full filling my wish I looked back up with a smile on my face and a glimpse of hope in my eyes.

The next day I woke up perfectly awake.
Bbama was laying on my right side and greeted me with some genuine licks.
"Good morning to u to bbama" I chuckled and put him down before getting up to stretch myself.
It's only needs half a week without jisung but I already missed him like crazy. I made myself some cornflakes,texted jisung and got ready for school.
The weather was awesome so I chose to dress in a skirt and an oversized shirt.
School was way more fun with sungeas new friends, making the classes more tolerable.
"And then he actually dared calling me marie!"
"He did not!" I yelled out,maybe a little too loud, giving us a free pass for detention.
"You're unbelievable y/n"
"At least I'm supportive, I could've just ignored your rambling and continued scribbling in my notes"
„Ya got a point there. Hey, doesn't jisung come back in a few days?"
"Yes he does! It'll finally be more lively again."
I checked my phone to see i got the last two classes canceled.
"Yes! Well, I'm off,see ya bestie"
"Wait wdym you still have math"
"Not me, it got canceled"
I laughed at her extremely sad expression and ran home.
I greeted bbama and went into the kitchen to get something to eat.
I decided on pasta after staring at the countless ingredients for 7 minutes.
The house did seem quite empty and silent without him around, but I enjoyed the silence whenever I got some.
as I silently ate my noodles in peace I suddenly remembered what jisung had told me.
The feeling of curiosity came over me and I opened the news side on my phone for the first time in ages.
Prison escaper finally found dead?
Actual information on the world wide known criminal kang baekhyun
What?
A shiver ran down my spine.
*wasn't he already dead? Why didn't I know anything about it? Why didn't anyone tell me? *
Without hesitation I called jisung.
He picked up after the 5th ring
"Hey y/n wassup? "
"What the fuck jisung? Why didn't you tell me my fucking father was still on the loose? "
He seemed taken back by my sudden outburst.
"What are you talking about? Calm down will you? "
"No! Why do you keep hiding things from me jisung! Why can't you just be honest with me? " I couldn't hold my sobs back anymore. I was tired of him keeping everything a secret from me.
"Listen, I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I thought it's better to not make you worry and kill him without you noticing. "
"Why? Don't I deserve to know what the heck is going on with one of my family members? For freaks sake jisung I'm not some fragile kid anymore! "
"I know I know y/n please calm down"
"Why didn't you tell me who you really are? " those words suddenly bursted out. If he wouldn't tell me himself, I would tell him.
"W-what? "
"Cmon, you know what I mean! You really think leaving me here alone at your place for over a week wouldn't make me wander around the house? I looked inside your drawer"
"What? Why would you just search through my stuff? I still have a right to privacy y/n! "
"Don't lead onto a different topic now han"
The line went quiet.
I've said it.
Now we don't have any more secrets to hide anymore.
He can finally tell me everything.
"I'm sorry"
"Why... Why didn't you tell me? "
He was quiet for a short time.
"I've hurt you so bad in the past. I thought if I told you who I really was you would not want to hang around me anymore... "
"Do you know... Just how long I've been waiting for you to come back into my life? I've been crying through so many sleepless nights thinking about the beautiful times I've shared with you. I could never hate you. Not now. Not then. Not ever"
I heard him starting to sob again.
"I... I never doubted your love for me. Not once. I just thought that the pain I have caused you has teached you to hate me. I didn't wanna loose you again. I couldn't. "

Han pov

"I didn't wanna loose you again. I couldn't. " I heard them chuckle lightly.
A face of worry and relief drawn on chans face who was sitting next to me.
They knew. They finally knew.
"You did promise to find me again, you kept that promise" they said, me practically hearing their smile through the voice.
"I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you, I was planning on doing so tho, I swear! "
"I believe you... I have to go feed bbama now tho"
"Thank you for forgiving me"
"Always. Goodnight han"
"Goodnight y/n"
I hung up and threw myself onto chan.
"Oh hell nahhhh mannn" I cried out, hearing chan laughing.
"It finally happened, I'm so proud of you man! You've kept that worry way too long with you" he patted my head for comfort.
"How the hell am I supposed to face them normally now? "
"Dude, they already said they forgive you. Be yourself. From now on, things can only get better"
"They better do"