our Love. (Newt xreader)

[2. The Jump]

A/N: I'm sorry...

Newt POV

It's been a few months since Y/n came up in the box and there hasn't been any other girls since. We've gotten a few boys though. Her and I have gotten close, she's the only thing that keeps me happy anymore. I hate being trapped here. There's been a few close calls with her and the newer boys lately, with these boys she's not completely safe and I hate knowing that. If anything happened to her, I'd lose my mind. She's the only thing keeping me going. 

"NEWT!" I heard y/n yell. I immediately turn my head towards it to see her running away from Minho. "Newt Help!" She yells again hiding behind me. "what's wrong love" I ask. "She messed up my hair and called me a shank!" Minho yelled trying to get to her. I laughed and sighed in relief, glad she wasn't actually in danger. Unexpectedly she wrapped her arms around my stomach from behind and said, "If you wanna get me you gotta get Newt to" I laughed and Minho rolled his eyes, "I'll get you later shuck face" he spoke towards y/n. 

"Thanks Newt" She said smiling at me. "Anytime love" I joked.

God I love this girl.

Reader POV

Grabbing Newts hand I lead him over to the little pond, my favorite place in the glade. We sat against a tree and he asked, "What's up Y/n/n" "Nothing much, this place just calms me down and I figured you could come too" I said. He nodded at me and closed his eyes. "You okay Newtie?" I asked a little worried. "yea, I'm fine love, just tired" "come here" I said scooting over to him placing his head on my shoulder as I put mine on his. And we just sat there Newt close to sleep and me just admiring him and the pond. 

I was worried about him, he's been off lately. Sleeping alot, not talking, barely eating, and he's been going in the maze with Minho more than ever. He hates the maze that's why it's weird. I love Newt and I want to make sure he's okay. 

-Next Day-

Today looks the same as yesterday, I garden, Newt and Minho go into the maze, and everyone else does their jobs. But today felt different. I don't know I just have a bad feeling. The runners left a little late today so that could be why but I don't think so. Maybe I'm just crazy. 

Newt POV

Today's the day. I've been planning for this awhile now. I'm gonna end it, end me. I turn the corner to the wall I need to be at and stand there. The ivy stops about three quarters the way up. The highest it goes up any wall. And I start climbing. Everything here sucks, the good thing is Y/n and I'm no good for her so I'm going to go away forever. I feel tears stinging my eyes at the thought of Y/n and the flesh ripping off my hands from the ivy. when I get to the top I look down and know it's time. "I love you Y/n" I whimper. Then I let go.

Reader POV 

I walk over to my hammock since it's break and see a piece of paper on it. I open up the paper and read. 

 Dear Y/n,

I'm sorry but I have to do this. I'm going to go away forever. I'm no good for you and I hate this place. Please find it in your heart to forgive me, or don't it's not like I deserve it. I'll always be with you.

I love you.

-Newt

I feel tears flood my eyes as I drop the note and run towards the maze. I can hear people yelling after me but I don't care I need to save Newt. Without second thought I run through the doors turning the way I usually see Newt run and start searching. It feels like I've been running for hours before I hear footsteps and I see Minho round the corner. He stops in shock and yells to me, "Y/n why are you in here!" "It's Newt" I scream back. "He's in danger, we have to find him" "what do you mean" He questions. "just trust me" I whimper as he walks closer. "Okay come on then" Minho sighs, running. I run after him tears stinging my eyes again. 

We round a corner and Minho stops. I almost run into him when I see what he's looking at. It's Newt. He's lying on the floor not moving his leg twisted an unnatural way. I break down crying and run to his side, checking a pulse. 

"Minho- he has a pulse, a slight one. we have to get him back." I cry. He nods grabbing one of Newts arms and putting it over his shoulder and I do the same. We run as fast as we can with Newt back to the glade. we make it back just before the doors close and yell for medjacks. They take him to the homestead and I follow close behind. I sit next to him as they lay Newt on the makeshift bed and I start crying even harder than before. Why would he do this? I think to myself. When they look at his leg they tell me it's broken and won't be able to completely heal, but I didn't care. I just needed him alive. 

"Stay with me Newt" I cry into his shoulder, making a wet spot on his shirt. "I love you, Newt" 

It felt like a fairytale, because as soon as I said that he opened his eyes. "I love you too Y/n/n" he whispered. "You're a shuck face Newtie" I laughed through my tears. "Oh, I know love" He hoarsely mumbled, smiling at me. I kissed his forehead and he closed his eyes drifting to sleep. Laying down next to him, my head on his chest listing to his heart beat, I fell asleep shortly after.