A promise...

some cruel memories / 🔞

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-dazai idiot, what are you doing? -
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- eh? Nothing Chuuya- ~>^<~
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-yeah whatever... come on be careful with the people they can have abilities too-
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I accidentally stepped on other persons foot
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- gomen.... -
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-do you think that sorry will clean my shoe idiot? -
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- he already told you that he's sorry-
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- yeah he better clean my shoe-
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Chuuya hit him and he had an ability, Chuuya blocked that but I didnt react that much, I got hit with his a ability.... he make you remember your worse memories...
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The first thing I remember.....my family...
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-shuji darling-
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-papa!-
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-stop treating that dumb kid as it has value-
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-darling i-
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She hit him
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-you what?-
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-nothing dear..-
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-im going out-
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-papa...?-
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-yes..?-
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-why do you still with her if she beats you always..?-
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-youll see... when someone loves someone, that someone will do anything for that person to be happy..-
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-so... you love her..?-
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- no.... I love you son... I'll do anything to see you happy,  that's my misión as your dad... if I have to kill someone for you I'll do it...-
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- papa... I'm not happy when she hits you...-
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He stayed in silence and let a tear go down his cheek
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-papa....- I cleaned his tear
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- I'm so sorry shuji.... w- what about this, in two days we will run away and create a new life together...-
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-that sounds great papa...-
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In the night, mother came home drunk when father was working...
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- hey idiot-
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-what do you want?-
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-be more respectful to me bastard-
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She hitted me and pushed me to the bed
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-mama..?-
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- I'm gonna teach you how to be a man-
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My mother....she was the first one to r4p3 me....
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In the morning papa came and saw me  covering with his big sweater while crying
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-w-what happened shuji?!-
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-papa....you told me you would protect me....she did this to me...-
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He looked desesperate and scared, he checked my body and saw the marks. His eyes were full if a dull.. he run to the kitchen and grabbed a knife, he run to their room.
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-WHAT ARE YOU DOING IDIOT?!-
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- HOW DARE YOU DID THAT TO SHUJI!-
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- HE NEEDED TO LEARN HOW TO BE A REAL MAN!-
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-AGH!-
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Some minutes of silence occurred...I went to see what happened, he covered my eyes and told me everything was okay...
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- I didn't protected you...I don't deserve be called your dad....-
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He walked to the phone and called the police
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" hello.."
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"Hello 911 what's your emergency? "
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"My... my wife....she..."
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"What did she did sir?"
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"She abuse my son"
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" okay sir, fisically or sexually?"
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"Sexually.."
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"Okay tell me your direction sir"
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" i...I killed her..."
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"Sir? You know we can use this in your defense? "
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"Could you take care of him...? I won't last too much...my direction is *********"
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He hangout and went for a rope
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-papa....what are you doing...?-
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-I'm going-
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-papa...please don't leave me...-
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-im sorry darling.... I'll have to end up everything-
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-is that how you do it?-
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-mhm...it's called suicide...it's a door open if you want to end your suffering..-
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-can I do it too?-
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-No..if you try to...I'll save you from the other side...-
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-but what if I suffer too much and I want to go?-
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-ill always be there....-
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He committed....
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Weeks before I've been trying to go with papa but I woke up on the hospital...a sir called morí told me to call him papa and that he would protect me...he did the same thing mother did...several time..my body was always temblering when he was near me....Odasaku-kun...he was li,e my real dad....he hugged me without asking for a kiss or for a little touch...he really loved me....
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I woke up at Mori's room he looked at me and yelled
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-Oh God you didn't died!-
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He kissed me...I almost throw up for everything I remembered
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-youre not feeling good right? -
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-n-no...
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-i told to take care idiot!-
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-yeah sorry I was looking for you but you were too short I didn't saw you-
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-Ja-ja I'll let you sleep again idiot-
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I went to my "room" and I slept a bit even if I wanted to cry... I drank all of my sleep pills and felt asleep immediately...