About a girl

3|loveless

We fought again for days .
I wanted to go to school . He said no
I wanted to go out . He refused
I wanted to go shopping. He said I needed guardiance
I wanted to meet with friends . He said it was dangerous
So one day we fought hard . He said harsh word but I also did I wasn't a little girl who he could shout at

I basically ran into my room and sat on the bed . My brown hair fell in my eyes and my banded wrists made me want to rip off my skin . I wanted to feel it I wanted to see my blood splash everywhere and slowly die as hades took my soul away from my body and my face went pale. I was so mad at him  . Sometimes I wished my mom was here next to me to comfort me to hug me .
I knew Nico's parents were dead from a terrible accident . At least he didn't have a wrecked father who beat him up every day because he was sad from his mothers death .
I knew my scars would heal quickly because I was used to it . In like a couple months I would get the bandages out they are triggering even to me . Deep scars which reached my veins so they cut them .
I heard a knock
" yes " I said blankly
" look Sofia I'm sorry for what I said  it was a burst of anger ok? " he said anxiously.
Was Nico Rodrigues anxious and apologising ? To me ?
" it's ok Nico" I said as he sat in my bed .
" are you hungry" he said seriously
" no " I answered .
" ok I'll be downstairs if you want company "
" is there anyone else ? "
" just two of my friends . Why don't you come meet them ?"
" I will in a few I have to do something first " I said looking at my wrists
" you need help ?"
" why are you being kind ?" I asked him suspiciously
" I want to be nice for once in my life and you are the only person who deserves to be helped since you're my fiancé " he said coldly
" ok you can help somehow " I said unwrapping my wrists
" don't get scared " I warned him with a smile
" baby I've killed a lot of people do you think a few cuts will trigger me ?" He said annoyed .
" I warned you " I said with an exhale while revealing one of my wrists
He took my hand and examined it carefully so that he wouldn't hurt me .
" they are deep . Very deep " he said still blankly but I could hear the shock in his voice .
I unwrapped both of my wrists and he got the aid kit .
He put alcohol in a cotton ball and and dabbed my wrists carefully and softly
I didn't react
I didn't feel pain or anything
He wrapped them again carefully .
"Let's go downstairs" he said and stood up .
" ok " I said anxiously
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" shut up she's here " one of them said
" hell she's pretty