Be The Sun

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"What's wrong hyung?"I asked.

"Nothing".

The answer was simple but it felt like darts thrown at you. It was cold and it had no emotions. The feeling they always shared was not present.

"Don't lie to me hyung. Do you think I won't know? Are you mad at me for trying to move out? Well, you know what you can't be selfish. The team comes first before us. We worked so hard not for us to ruin it. You are always selfish and put your own feelings ahead." 

I don't know what came over me but I darted at Woozi with my word.

I suddenly came to my senses when I saw tears brimming in his eyes. He was speechless.

"I'm sorry".

Those were his last words before he left the room. I wanted to stop him and say 'Sorry hyung' but not a single word came out. I was mad at myself when I saw him leaving the room with his eyes full of tears. But still, I couldn't do anything. Something inside me says that this is wrong, but this side of me is telling me to let go.

I heard the bell ring and made my way towards the practice room. My heart clenched when I saw the cold expression on the face of always smiling Woozi.

The choreographer started discussing some steps that had been changed and everyone joined the discussion. Woozi hyung just kept on nodding and didn't speak a word. It was all fine till I saw Hoshi hyung approaching Woozi hyung. There's always been that one spark of feeling that nobody else shared and I was jealous of it. 

They were whispering something to each other but I wasn't mad at him for being close to Hoshi hyung. I was mad at myself for saying all those ruthless words to him. Why did I do that? I don't know. Something unexpected took over me and I couldn't control it.

I kept glancing at Woozi throughout the whole session. Sometimes in between I saw him and Hoshi talking to each other and laughing. What were they talking about?