To Get There

Chapter 6

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Serkan's POV

"Because I don't have a heart."

My fingers touched her chin and my thumb rose to touch her lower lip.

Eda's eyes did not leave mine while I held back the rain that stormed my eyes: a drop fell from my eyes but I couldn't let Eda see this side of me, she was too pure to deserve to see the tears of the devil.

Eda choked the words, the rivers of why she wanted to ask me and I was grateful.

I saw her throat go up and down, accompanying the bitter bite that she had just swallowed: the truth about me or, better, the result on me of a truth that her kind soul did not deserve to know.

I would never ruin her light with the darkness of my mind.

"Sleep, Eda. It's been a long day."

I murmured, taking my hand behind the back of her neck and letting her face sink into my chest.

I felt Eda breathe hard and force her eyes to close and, after a while, sleep caught her, calming her breath.

I was still a little awake admiring the quiet that dominated my heart with Eda in my arms, incredulous at feeling so calm while I was holding to myself the woman that I had always imposed not to be able to hold.

And after so many sleepless nights, I fell asleep... peacefully.

My dreams had always been tormented by the noise of my thoughts, but that night I subconsciously felt that I was living a tranquility that I liked, and I liked it so much.

Until I felt a warmth wrapping around my forearm, pierced by the nails that crawled on my skin, while her breath labored and tears stained her closed eyes: Eda began to pant in my arms, murmuring words I couldn't understand at first.

"Let me go... please, I have nothing... let me go..."

Eda's hands tightened tighter around my arm as her face twisted in the pain of a memory haunting her dreams.

"Leave me alone!"

She screamed, choking her tears.

"Eda! Eda, wake up, it's okay... Eda, I'm here."

I squeezed my hand behind the back of her neck, plunging my fingers into her fluffy hair and clutching her at me, whispering words to reassure her.

And her eyes opened wide.

Eda jumped sitting on the bed, fatigued by what she had experienced in her dream and I followed her movement, letting my hand comfort her by moving on her back, feeling the subtle sweat under my touch.

"Eda..."

I carried my hand on her cheek, and I invited her to turn to look at me, and I saw the void.

Eda trembled in my arms, swallowed heavily and felt tears running down her face.

"Eda, it's me. You're safe."

"Serk... Serkan?"

Eda looked up and I thought about how beautiful she always was and how much I suffered to see her lovely expression disappear on her face in the suffering of what I didn't know that tormented her.

"Serkan, I... I'm sorry I woke you up. I... it was a bad nightmare, I felt..."

"Eda you don't have to apologize, you just have to tell me what I can do for you now."