devotion • lrh

fans and feelings

I wake up to my phone going off multiple times. I groan as the sunlight meets my eyes. I squint before picking up my phone to see many texts from Aaron, my manager.

Every single one is about last night. Asking how it went, saying it seems it went good, and telling me to check my socials. I get on Instagram and my eyes widen. My followers have gone up by about a few thousand in just the small hours I was asleep for. Aaron starts to call me so I answer.

"Holy shit," I say into the phone.

"I know. This is really going to go well," Aaron says.

"This is insane. It's only been a few hours," I state.

"So how was it last night?" Aaron asks and I groan.

"I don't understand him. He's an ass and then is starting to be nice and then an ass again."

"Maybe he just needs time to warm up to you."

"Maybe," I sigh.

"Just try to work with him. If you guys are on good terms this will be easier for you."

"I know. I'm going to try. I can't make any promises though."

"Just try your best. It'll be over in a few months anyways."

"Yeah," I replied.

"I believe in you. But I have to go," Aaron tells me.

"Thank you. Goodbye," I say and then hang up.

I fall back down onto my bed and close my eyes. Just try to work with him. Yeah sure that'll be fun. Luke already seems so hard to get to and I've only known him for a day. But maybe Aaron is right, maybe he will warm up to me. I'm not quite sure I want him to though.

He's so two-sided. One minute I feel like I'm getting somewhere with him and the next it's back to square one. I just wish he would stick to being an okay person or just an ass. That seems to be too hard for him though. It doesn't matter. This will all be done soon and I won't ever have to talk to him again.

My phone vibrates and I roll my eyes before looking at it. My heart stops at the name on my screen. Mason. I can not do this today one bit. I haven't talked to this pathetic so-called 'man' since he decided to cheat on me with just about every girl he's seen. I don't know what kind of 'man' he thinks he is but I'm feeling more of a man-whore. I mean who does that. I gave him my everything and he just throws it to the side like it's nothing. But apparently he saw me and Luke together and isn't happy about this.

Mason: Why are you out with that dick.

Well I think that's the first thing we've agreed on. Luke is a dick. Only sometimes though. And if Mason thinks he's a dick then right now Luke just so happens to be an angel. It's not his place to say anything. He fucked us up.

Mason: I'm sorry.

Mason: Meghan I'm serious.

Mason: One chance.

In his fucking dreams. I turn my phone off and get out of bed walking down to the kitchen. I make myself a cup of coffee and then find myself staring into space thinking about Mason and I's relationship. I mean what if he has changed. We used to have something that was really good. No. I can't do that. I forgave him over and over. I'm done with him. My phone vibrates again.

"I swear to god Mason," I mumble under my breath until I see it was just a text from KayKay.

KayKay: We need to meet up. I need details on last night ASAP.

I sigh before replying to her.

Meghan: Cafe in an hour?

KayKay: I'll see you there!